Jenlisa Park

Thirty

Jennie's POV

Weeks had passed, me and Lisa are still connected. She always take me out and have fun. I really had a great time with her. I know that I'm already cheating but I just can't resist her. She's still the one. I was just forced to love Jungkook back, yes I love him but it's not true love. I love him for the sake of his parents and his health. If he thinks that I'm happy with him, then he is absolutely wrong.

I was browsing my phone while sitting. I was super tired because Lisa invited me to play basketball. I'm not really an athletic person. We had a bet and yes, she freaking won. Seeing her smile and jump in happiness made my heart flutter, she's just so cute.

"Babe, what's up?" Jungkook entered the room with a smile. I smiled back at him even if I feel sick because of our call sign. "Nothing, just a little tired, babe." He walked closer and sat beside me. "Where did you go?" He curiously asked. I choked at his question. "Just somewhere." I replied shortly. "So, will you please introduce me your friend?" I shockingly looked at him. "Who?" I asked. "The one who hugged you near the gate." He responded. I was starting to sweat, "She's umm..."I stood up and walked to the sink to drink some water. "She's?" He asked again and sat on the counter.

What am I gonna do? I can't lie to him. I know what it feels when someone lies to you, and it really feels bad. But I just can't risk Lisa here.

"She's my bestfriend, Lisa." I shortly replied. He played with his keys, "Lisa? She's beautiful y'know." He joked, my ear ticked at him when he said Lisa's beautuful. Boi, she's only mine.

"Yeah, she is." I faked a smile. "Do you wanna hang out tonight?" He asked. I played with my fingers while looking down, "Uhh, s-sure. I would love to." I laughed awkwardly. I fucking lied.

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"Do you want to eat those?" Jungkook asked as he pointed to a street food. I nodded. I've been quite the whole time but I guess he didn't noticed it or he just didn't payed attention to it. I can't help but compare him to Lisa. I know it isn't nice to compare the two but I just can't help it. Everytime I look at him, I don't feel anything. While with Lisa, I can feel butterflies in my stomach and my heart beating loudly. Whenever he touches me or holds my hand, it doesn't affect me. When our skins, me and Lisa, accidentally brushes, I can feel those tingling sensation that wants me more of her touches. I'm really guilty. Jungkook's a nice guy and he doesn't deserve to be cheated. I'm scared that what if the time will come that he'll knew about us? I'm not prepared. I know he'll get mad and he can do anything he wants, he can harm Lisa. I will probably tell him about us when the right time comes because my conscience is eating me. I'll just wait for the perfect timing, but when will that come? I asked myself. Will it be tomorrow? Or the next day after tomorrow? It's messed up. Everything's messed up, but we will fix it.

"Hey there! Can I borrow your guitar, buddy?" Jungkook asked a man holding his guitar. "I'll just sing a song for this pretty girl beside me." He looks at me and winked. "Such a sweet guy, well, here ya go, man." The guy handed his guitar. "Just watch and hear me, babe." Jungkook clears his throat.

You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
You know you want me
So don't keep saying our hands are tied

He smiled at me and I smiled back, his voice still amazes me.

You claim it's not in the cards
And faith is pulling you miles away
And out of a reach from me
But you're hearing my heart
So who can stop me if I decide it's on my destiny?

What if we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine
Nothing could keep us apart
You'll be the one I was meant to find
It's up to you, and it's up to me
No one could say what we get to be
So why don't we rewrite the stars?
And maybe the world could be ours tonight

He signalled me to continue the song and so I did.

You think it's easy
You think I don't wanna grow onto you, yeah
But there are mountains (But there are mountains)
And there are doors that we can't walk through

My eyes started to tear up, not because of the song but because I can see Lisa through him. They really have similarities and it isn't helping at all. It makes it harder for me to face them. I pity him, because I can't think no one else but Lisa, while him, he's thinking about me while singing the song.

I know you're wondering why
Because we're able to be just you and me within these walls
But when we go outside
You're gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all

He smiles and walks on circles, centering me.

Yes, the same scene where me and Lisa were having fun at the karaoke bar.

No one can rewrite the stars (Rewrite the stars)
How can you say you'll be mine?
Everything keeps us apart
And I'm not the one you were meant to find
(I'm not the one you were meant to find)
It's not up to you, it's not up to me, yeah
When everyone tells us what we can be (Tells us what we can)
And how can we rewrite the stars?
Say that the world can be ours tonight (Be ours)

He danced and his smile never leaves his face. My tears were starting to flow. He's just like Lisa, always smiley and will do everything to make me happy.

All I want is to fly with you
All I want is to fall with you
So just give me all of you
It feels impossible
It's not impossible
Is it impossible?
Say that it's possible

And how do we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine
And nothing can keep us apart
'Cause you are the one I was meant to find
It's up to you, and it's up to me
No one could say what we get to be
And why don't we rewrite the stars?
Changing the world to be ours

He breathed and close his eyes while ending the song.

You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
But I can't have you
We're bound to break and my hands are tied

He opened his eyes slowly and smiled. I heard applauds from the people watching us the whole time. I didn't noticed that, I was busy thinking about him and Lisa. "Thank you, man." Jungkook handed the guitar back. "You two were nice!" The man commented. Flashes from the camera invaded my sight and lots of smiling faces warmed my eyes. "You're lucky! You're boyfriend is like that." A girl in mid 20's said that made me choke. Yes, I am really lucky to have him, but I can't do anything to love him back.

"Let's go now, Jennie." He said and offered his arms for me to cling on.

Jungkook is a sweet guy, so is Lisa. Ugh, they're just fucking the same.

I'm torn between the two.