Jack Avery | Secret Love 2

14.

Taylor's P.O.V

I finished the last bight of my pancakes and took mine and Jacks plates over to the sink, I sat back down next to Jack only to see his phone shaking in his hands, i furrowed my eyebrows.

"I just want to know how many there were Jack" I interrupted him as he began rambling on about the first song. He looked at me, I could tell he was nervous. "umm" he said as he pondered "Hooked, In too deep...and 8 letters" he said sighing before he said the last one, as if it was almost too personal.

"Why did you say it like that" I said with worry painted all over my face, "you'll see" he said as he starting playing the first song.

Used to be scared of the ocean
'Cause I didn't know how to swim
I took one sip of your potion
Now I'm just divin' right in

I heard your siren's call, it was beautiful
I am drowning, God, please don't save me

I'm in too deep
Can't touch the bottom with my feet
Don't know what you did to me, I can't breathe but I'm living
I'm in too deep
Can't touch the bottom with my feet
Don't know what you did to me, I can't breathe but I'm living

"Wow" I said with a chuckle as I wiped away a tear, trying not to let Jack see me. "That's one of my favourites" he smiled, he then went onto the next one and I could already tell this one was going to be hard.

"Jack..." I rambled on as I wiped another tear, "wait" he said as he interrupted me "just hear me out ok? Listen to the last one? Please?" He said as he grabbed my hand. I nodded and grabbed his hand as well.

You know me the best
You know my worst, see me hurt, but you don't judge
That, right there, is the scariest feeling
Opening and closing up again
I've been hurt so I don't trust
Now here we are, staring at the ceiling

I've said those words before but it was a lie
And you deserve to hear them a thousand times

If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?
If all it is is eight letters
Why am I in my own way?
Why do I pull you close
And then ask you for space
If all it is is eight letters
Why is it so hard to say?

Isn't it amazing how almost every line on our hands align
When your hand's in mine
It's like I'm whole again, isn't that a sign
I should speak my mind...

After the song was finished Jack turned his phone off and looked down at me, I sat there in silence trying to hide my tears from him. "They were beautiful" I said with a toothless grin as I got up and walked over to the kitchen.

He just continued to sit there and gave me a weird expression, "that didn't sound too convincing" he questioned as he stood up and walked over to me. "Well I just listened to 3 songs written by someone I loved for so long, you could agree it's a lot to take in right now" I said as I pulled my hair out of my face.

"Is it hot in here?" I said as walked over and opened up the screen doors for fresh air, "not really" he said in a suspicious voice. "Do you want to sit down?" He said gesturing over to my bedroom, "yeah maybe" I said as I walked in and slumped down onto my bed.

• time skip •

It's been about 2 or 3 hours and Jack and I are still in my bedroom laying on my bed talking, were still catching up on each other's lives trying to process how successful one another has been. I'm so beyond proud of those boys and what they've accomplished, it's truely amazing.

"So hows Logan?" Jack asked almost as if he was scared to ask, "I knew you were gonna ask eventually" I said with a little chuckle. "The boys and I have been so busy lately we just, haven't caught up with him you know" he said shrugging his shoulders.

I smiled an understanding smile, "he's great, honestly. He's doing better than he was 5 years ago and him and I are closer than ever" I sighed "I'm even talking to Jake again", "Wow really? That's so great" he said in an exciting voice but also a little shocked.

"Yeah it really is, I really missed him and it just seemed so silly to not have him in my life over something so stupid you know?" I said as I fiddled with my fingers, "I know it doesn't really matter but does he ever speak about us? Logan? What happened after you and I all those years ago?" He said in a soft voice, I could tell he was upset.

"It's ok Jack, he's not mad at you or any of the boys. He took it quite well actually, he was happy to hear I had moved on and gotten on with my career. But I also was really unhappy with myself and my life for a little while and I think he could really start to notice it was because I didn't have you" I said sympathetically.

"that's when he realised he needed to forgive me, and he did of course. We we're young Jack, so young! And of course we were in love I truely believe we were, but we had no idea was love really was. We had no idea what we were getting ourselves into and as much as we want to admit it isn't true, we weren't fully ready to be parents" I said holding back the water works.

"I know, and I think about it constantly but it's true. And I realised that a long time ago, I just needed reassurance you know" he said with a sigh and a small warm smile.

"I missed you Tay" he whispered, I smiled widely. "I missed you too" I said back as we leant in and kissed each other passionately.