Life with the Flash

Death In The Family

TRIGGER WARNING⚠️: Suicide, Depression, Death of parent

Listen I don't know what depression is like or what it would be like to commit suicide v(lmao going back and reading this after trying to commit and getting prescribed anti-depressants🤡🤡🤡)

Backstory:My mom died when I was little. My dads all I have left even my sister hates me because apparently I act like I'm better than her. Other than Barry and his family there is nothing left on my side of the family and losing my father sent me into a deep depression and everything became so hard.

This is a sad story and a little bit of smut

Now it will start.

"Barry I-I'm just gonna go" I uttered into Barry's chest as we stood in the lobby of the hospital. My dad had a massive heart attack in his sleep and they said he had no chance. I just feel like I could've done something.

"Lily baby listen I don't think you need to be alone right now" he replied pulling me away from him to look up at his face that was full of remorse and sorrow. He wiped his thumb over my tear stained cheeks and planted a kiss on my forehead.

I just shook my head and walked away. Pushing everyone away just seemed likes good way to go.

I loved Barry with all my heart but right now this emotion that I was feeling burned my heart and my every part of my body ache.

I got in the car, I knew Barry didn't need it cause ya know super speed and all, and I drove to the nearest hotel. It was a really nice place and it looked like it cost a lot. I knew I could afford it so I went in and asked for the nicest room they had. I also knew I didn't need it cause it wasn't like I'd be doing anything in it. She gave me a key to one of their sweats and I made my way to the elevators.

This feels like a stupid thing to do and I know you think what I'm doing is dumb but just wait you'll see.

I got to the room and got completely naked and then rapped myself in one of the nice plush robes from the bathroom. Now you'll see why I'm here.

I opened the refrigerator with all the little snacks and drinks and of course there was all those little bottles of vodka.

I drank a few bottles. And then a few more. And maybe just one or two extra and then I felt nice and tipsy.

I normally never do this but other than drugs that I don't want to do this is the best way to escape the world.

After that I laid on my bed and started at the constantly spinning fan and it made me pretty dizzy. With my already drunk brain and then the dizziness hitting me it caused everything in my stomach to launch out and I just barely made it to the bathroom.

I couldn't do this anymore. I loved Barry but I just didn't feel like my life was worth living any longer. I pulled the pills that I had for my dad that he didn't need anymore and swallowed a few handfuls of them. I ran the baths don got in with my robe still on.

The effect of the pills stated hitting me like bricks to the face and everything got dark and drowsy.

"LILY!!!! Holy SHIT lily wake up please wake up!" I could hear a very recognizable voice call.

With the last bit of energy that I had left in me I threw up. All the pills and acids that was in me came out and my vision slowly came back.

"B-Barry" I questioned reaching my hand out.

My vision and feeling had completely returned at Barry lifted me out of the bathtub into the bedroom and on the bed. He took the soaking wet robe off me and took off his now wet shirt.

"Lily why did you do this you know there is better options. I am here for you and I need you. Lily you can't leave me!" He sobbed into my bare stomach.

"I-I'm sorry Barry I just don't feel needed anymore. My dad was the only thing that I had left. Now I'm just nothing" I replied as he covered me in the blankets.

" Lily I need you. You have me, Cisco, Caitlyn, Harry, H.R., Joe, Ires we are all here for you. We all need you. Me and you we are Barry and Lily without you well I'm just Barry that nerdy forensic scientist. Without you Lily I am nothing" he explained and my eyes began tearing up.

"I- I didn't realize you felt this way Barry. I love you" I said and with that he kissed me with deep passion.

"Is this really a good idea?" I asked wondering if it was a great idea to be doing these actions after what I just did.

"Don't worry I just want to kiss you my love" he explained and I nodded. He kissed my lips and his were salty from the tears that he shed. He kissed down my neck and on my ears and back to my lips. He left a final lingering kiss on my jaw before rolling over and pulling me into his side.

I knew that killing myself would be the easy way out to escape my problems. But it would hurt the ones I love. I know you may think it doesn't matter cause you won't be here anymore. It does matter you are loved I promise you. Even if you don't think you are if your reading this right now I love you. I hope that my love for each and everyone of your readers that are depressed or feel that you are alone I hope this can tell you that I care about u even if there is nobody else the love that I have in my heart for my readers can make you stop and think about the fact that maybe killing yourself isn't the easy way out because there I'll be just as much more sorrow after your gone💛💛💛