Life with the Flash

Why?

"Barry you can't be serious" I choked out tears streaming down my cheeks.
"I'm sorry y/n" is all he said with a single tear rolling down his cheek. With a small lingering peck on my forehead he left shutting the door behind him.

I fell to a heaped clump on the floor sobbing into my sweatshirt.

Why would he leave me. I thought he loved me. I love him! These thoughts were all that ran through my mind for hours. I just sat curled up on the floor sobbing.

It couldn't be true I know this is just a dream. It's just a practical joke that's not even funny.

I couldn't feel my legs as I crawled to the kitchen pulling a knife off the counter holding it to my wrist. If this was a dream or if it was a joke Barry would stop me. Nothing happened I pressed the knife into my skin cutting barely enough to draw blood. I did it about four times before passing out.

"Y/n!y/n!" I heard Berry yelling. Good it was just a dream. A nightmare more like. I thought.

But I looked down at my wrist to see it was definitely no dream. Barry has left me he was just here to get his things. I pulled my sleeve over my wrist standing up to face him. When I did I instantaneously fell back down.

"Oh my god!" Barry gasped picking me up and taking me to the couch.

I just curled up in a ball throwing a blanket back over me. Tears pricked my eyes and soon they streamed down my cheeks. I didn't make a noise just breathed heavily and sniffled once or twice.

"Go away Barry!" I screamed my body not capable of hearing his voice let alone look at his face.

"Just le-" he began being cut off by my sobs. I choked on air just thinking about him right now.

"GO AWAY!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs.

I heard Barry sigh as the door slammed shut behind him. I fell asleep again not bothering to get up.

"She's so dehydrated!" I heard a familiar voice screech as a prick went into my vein. I opened my eyes to see Caitlyn and Cisco on both sides of me. Cisco had a sucker in his mouth and Caitlyn was holding a flashlight to my eyes. I looked down at my feet to see Barry sitting at the end of the bed.

"Get him out of here" I barely squeaked my lips chapped and my tongue dry. Barry just nodded frowning and walking out of the room into the cortex. Cisco held a juice box to my mouth and I took a sip. Instant relief spread through my mouth.

"Thank you Cisco" I whispered as he gave me a nod.

"Y/n you were so dehydrated! What did you do?" She asked giving me a soft smile.

Then she saw the cuts on my wrist and her smile faded away. "I'll just be in the cortex call for me if you need me" she said walking out sighing whispering to herself.

Barry's pov

I hated having to do this. I love her so much but it was for her own good. I couldn't let her get hurt.

Caitlyn stomped into the cortex a concerned look on her face. She grabbed me and Cisco by the ear pulling us into her lab and shutting the door.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!!!" She yelled hitting me upside the head. "Ow" I groaned.

"Barry she has been out for the last week and she had cuts going all the way up her arm. What did YOU do?" She said giving Cisco a look.

"I b-broke up with her" I uttered out tears threatening my eyes.
"I thought it was for the best to not get her involved with the flash" I said a tear rolling down my cheek and hitting my sweatshirt.

"Barry this girl is crushed! She cut herself Barry she slept for a week straight! Because of YOU! You know she could have died right? She is in love with you Barry, madly in love! I know your in love with her too! You have to trust in her to keep your secret!!!" Cisco lectures me.

"I'm not! It's my choice I'm not okay! Now I have to get to work I'll tell Joe she's taking some personal time" I said speeding out of the cortex.

Y/n pov

Cisco walked back in disconnecting me from all of the various machines around us.

"Thank you" I said softly walking out.

I drove home going to my room and turning on the TV to some random show about kids singing and crap.I fell asleep again hoping I didn't wake up this time around.

My alarm beeped waking me up. I needed to go to work it's a must. I hour up throwing in a long sweater and tights. I slipped on my light blue flats and curled my hair a bit.

The first thing I did when stepping into CCPD was walk straight to the captains office to explain were I had been.

"Ah y/n glad to see you've come back to life" he said.

"I'm so sorry sir. I have been sick and Barr just bro-" I cut myself off before I could finish what I was saying. A tear falling down my cheek. I put my head down wiggling my feet.

"I'm just sorry sir it won't happen again" I squeaked. He told me to leave and it was all fine so I walked up to the lab and sat down at my desk.

"Have anything we need to work on Ba- I mean Mr.Allen" I looked up to see a stunned look on his face. "Well do we?" I asked again annoyance lacing my tone. He just nodded handing me a vanilla folder.

"Thanks" I said opening the folder and avoiding eye contact. I swallowed the lump in my throat and began looking through he data samples in my folder.

The clock on the wall buzzed and I shot up out of my seat. "I'm on lunch Allen" I said walking out not bothering to say goodbye.

"Don't you want to go get lunch together?" He asked stopping me dead in my tracks.
I walked back into the lab.

"Why?" I questioned my voice quivering with hurt.

"I just thought maybe we could still be friends" he muttered. I couldn't take it anymore. I slapped him. I slapped him hard.

"Ow" he groaned putting his hand over his cheek.

"Don't act like we can be friends Mr.Allen! I don't want to be your friend! I WANTED to be your girlfriend and one day I thought I was going to be your WIFE!" I yelled anger surrounding every word that left my lips. Tears streamed down my cheeks more than the time I watched the Notebook.

I stomped out of the lab and right into Captain Sings office.

"I'm leaving CCPD sir I'm sorry I just can't work here any more n-not with Barry" I said leaving him with a mouth hanging open.

I left the building and got in my car driving to Jitters to talk to my best friend,Ires West.

She saw me and immediately ran over sitting me down onto one of the soft red leather lounge seats.

"Y/n what's wrong hunny?" She asked and all I did was hug her and start sobbing into her apron. She patted my back till I was done then I told her the story and how I quit CCPD cause of Barry.

"Well then you can have a job here till you get back on your feet" she said trying to cheer me up.

"Now go home and eat something you look like a bag of skin and bones" she said with a soft smile kissing me on the forehead and sending me out the door.

I went home and ran into my bedroom to see a bag of Big Belly Burger on my bed. This is the work of that shit Barry. I frowned when I saw he got my favorite meal even telling them to leave out the cheese. I couldn't resist. I ate and then began to go to bed when my door swung open.

"What th-" I was cut short by two strong arms grabbing me and speeding out of the building before I could even open my eyes fully. The unknown man sat me down and the building exploded. What in the actual fuck?!?!

I can't any more. Could this day actually get any worse!

I made this chapter EXTRA long since the last one was sooooooo short. I really hope you like it and don't forget to add to your library,vote, and share with your friends!!!
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