No War - Divergent

Chapter 1 Tobias's P.O.V

I walk into the trasfer dormitory. I'm pretty sure I'll find Tris around here as she should be finishing off packing. I haven't seen her since the ranking ceremony, I slipped out just before it to talk to Marcus about his 'attempt to win me back'. I turned into my younger coward and he turned into the monster I've always known. Yeah.

  

Tris turns around and when she sees me at the door, I walk in a little bit further. Tris pulls me into a tight hug. I grunt.

"Are you okay?" Tris generally looks concerned as she leans back and looks me in the eyes. Lie.

"Me? Yes! How are you?" I hope Tris hasn't been spending too much time with Christina.

"I'm good and happy, actually." Tris is moving in with me she is very happy. And so am I.

"Me too." I smile a little bit. But it comes out as more of a mixture of a wince and a grunt. Tris pulls me into a kiss and I struggle to keep up with her and instead end up grunting. She pulls back and narrows her eyes at me. But then she frowns as well.

"What's up?" Oh no.

"Nothing," But the lashes from Marcus on my stomach. "Come on, finish packing." I fakely chuckle. Then when she turns around to finish packing I sigh. That was too close. I can't keep up with my own lies.

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I kick my apartment door open and put her bags down on the sofa. Tris wraps her small hands around my waist, making me bolt straight up from the pain of my lashes. She lets go immediately and her eyes look watery. Well done,  Tobias.

"What?!" She yells at me then folds her slender arms over her chest.

"I-It's nothing..." You stuttered. I begin to fiddle  with the cushions; which are shoved in no pattern over the sofa.

"Four!" I turn to face her, her face is red and I feel mine is hot-red.

"Tobias." I say calmly. Her eyes look the cool gray they normally are but extremely watery.

"Four, Tobias, what's wrong?" I sigh, heavily. Then throw my top over my head. For a while she just stares but eventually she comes closer to me and gently touches my fresh scars.

"What happened?" Tris is never, ever, happy when she silent and she says that almost silently. Lie. Lie. Lie.

"I...Uh..." Lie. Why is it so hard? "I got into a fight." I say sternly. She narrows her eyes at me again like earlier today. I fakely frown. I can't come clean, she might leave me. But if I leave it she'll be more upset. "Don't you believe me?" I raise my eyebrows.

"No. I believe you." Tris starts towards her bags and begins to unpack. She doesn't have much as she's only just become a Dauntless member and she barely has any credits to buy much with.

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I hug Tris.

"Are we...uh..." I begin awkwardly. "Sleeping together?" I cough awkwardly.  My face becomes hot and I'm glad she can't see. Thank you, height and hugs.

"Yes." Tris's face is warm against my chest. I guess she feels awkward too. I lean in and kiss her passionately. She runs her fingertips up and down my spine and my fingers involuntary move to the hem of her shirt. Stop Tobias. I pull away before I rip her shirt off. She smiles and walks off to get ready for bed.

A few minutes later she finger calls me from the bedroom door. I follow. Tris wears one of my old tops~which is still too many sizes too big for her~and a pair of her own loose shorts. For a moment my eyes feel like they are going to stick to her legs permanently but I force myself too look away; before she gets uncomfortable. I don't put another top on, I just stay shirtless and wear my loose pants I have on. Tris settles in my~our~bed and I lie down next to her. My arm moves around her waist before I can control it. She looks a little bit shocked at first but then she relaxes and falls asleep. But for me, however, I am just thinking of Tris. I think of her figure, her eyes, her~Stop it. The voice in my head scolds.

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I open my eyes and get out of bed. Just a normal day. No control room work and no iniates to train. But why do I feel so nervous?  I turn to my bed. Sure enough. She stayed there the whole night.  I decide to be more forward. I shouldn't be embarrassed about it. She's my girlfriend. I walk over to her lying on the bed and put my lips to her ear.

"Wake up." I whisper almost like Four, the scary instructor. She turns to face me and then opens her grey eyes. I kiss her cheek. She smiles. Then I kiss her neck, she tenses slightly but I continue. I kiss her collar bone and then move my shirt that's on her down a bit. I kiss each one of her ravens. By now she is shaking. And I'm losing self control. Stop. Stop now. No, I can't. I kiss her neck again and then kiss her lips. Tobias. Stop. You need to stop. I pull away. I don't want to but I don't want to scare Tris. She relaxes and smiles a little bit. But I'm not sure whether she just doing that even though she's uncomfortable. She kisses my cheek and then gets up and walks into the kitchen.