Imperfect

Chapter 10

"Hey, you guys want pizza?" Brian's Mum asks, after a few hours of playing video games.

"Yeah, please Mrs. Davis." I say.

The others agree in mutters and grumbles which makes her smile and roll her eyes.

That's the thing these days. Mums have become cool without being un-cool. As in; they know what's new and what not to say. All those cheesy sitcoms that people watch out of necessity (that includes all of us) are wrong and rather demeaning.

Not that I'm saying my Mum's never done something that I would continue embarrassing, in fact I remember Maria's Mum embarrassing her one time, and she was practically falling over from laughter, especially when I joined in.

I think that was when my friends' realised that I'm different in the mental kind of way, not just the physical.

"So what play are you doing exactly?" Oscar asks, after a while.

"The amazing and thrilling Cats!" I tell him.

"Well, I am completely underwhelmed!" Oscar sighs.

"Be polite please! I'm sure they're putting a lot of effort into it!" Toby argues.

"Seriously it's a complete dump!" Oscar jokes.

Toby's about to say something, but I interject and say "Yeah, and trying to steal a ball and get it to the floor is so much better."

"Whatever, an organised dump anyway." Oscar allows.

"Hey, I'm just going to go to the bathroom." I tell them.

Instead of actually using the toilet I take out my phone and look at my messages. There's only one person's posts that I hadn't looked at whilst I was with the others. And now I find there's a message and I'm celebrating on the inside.

IWANNAGETBETTER-Hey! You'll never guess! I actually told one of my friends about my crush, and they actually guessed that I'm bi! It was actually okay, which I was not expecting. He kind of just stared at me then sort of guessed the rest of it, which I find kind of surprising.

I've been asking him about how to talk to the person, and he's been about as much help as you can imagine coming from a dude who is kind of terrible at dating. I think I told the wrong person and asked for their help wrong to, because I'm now positive that they have a huge crush on the person I like. I hope it all works out though. If the strange things do happen and I somehow end up with the person I like, then I'll probably cave if he wants that person. I realise that that is very inexplicable, but it would work for me either way

It was a little random, and even more awkward than I thought it would be, but then it got better and he kind of supports me, as in he won't tell anyone else for the time being. Which is all I need. It makes me feel better that they know, but it does make me more anxious about my Dad. After all, how am I going to tell him, and then say that I thought my friends should know before him.

I've learnt that in coming out, with your friends at lease, you should just come out and say it. Not mumble or shift or anything. (Not that I actually told him properly).

I think one of my friends likes my crush, because they keep on flirting with them. Though I don't think my crush actually notices that they're flirting. They're a lot like you-obsessed with pop culture that is. I like to think that it's possible for you to be them. I know that might be weird, but still.

The friend, who I told who my crush is, has lodged me into an annoying situation: i.e. I'm at their house with my friends, someone else who I have told about my sexuality hence and my crush. They're funny and sensitive like you, and I think I'll be stuck giving them a ride home so I need some conversation starters quickly!