READ THIS FIRST IT'S IMPORTANT : First the most important thing is that I changed the fact that they are in high school they are in university now lol I know it's kinda of messed up but you'll understand why later on when you'll be reading this chapter oh and I also changed the way I write it when someone's talking and I'm so so sorry for the very late update it's just that the number of votes and comments aren't really motivating , And just to tell you I tried to make this chapter just as long as I could lol. AND THE MOST IMPORTANT PART I'm going to keep the casts as they are , one direction of course but not with their real details like in this story Zayn's birthday will be the 12 of July not of January.
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RECAPE :
Me : Bad timing . It's better to be worth it !
Harry : The puppy didn't make it , want me to send his body ?
And all of the sudden the feeling of guilt filled my body from head to toe ...
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Love ? What a funny word , destroying yet so full with hopes and dreams ...
Love who ? My family wich consists only in wrecked souls that the destiny chose to tear apart , a drunk dad who tried to end the life of his wife every night or the brother who watched it happen every time and never did something about in fact he enjoyed it or the mother who sent me here to get me away from them who did her hardest to give me a better life yet she gave up on me now I can understand her she's tired of fighting for me and I know that now it's everyone for himself ...
Or love my friends ? Who I couldn't keep by my side and who I destroyed their life , that I mentally destroyed , those people who had such a peaceful life , now their life is such a huge mess ... if we still can call a life ... but still I'm happy about one thing is that they are safe now , and the fact they can start their life from zero and just burn the book where I played an important role in it.
Or love the devil ? I'm still wondering why the hell am I in love with him , after all He's to blame for everything , still I know that but I can't keep myself from loving him , from my heart racing and getting butterflies whenever he's around and smiling whenever he smiles because he have that kind of smile that can warm up your whole body and that could light up a whole town , and the way he's eyes start sparkling whenever he smiles you could get lost into them and I guess I did ... and you know that he have a spark in his soul , he have so much more to give to the world yet he's keeping everything to himself , I know that he's a good person he just needs someone to help him to calm his demons and I'd love to be that person who'll help him get out of "himself" because I don't want it to be someone else I don't want to let him go half way , because I love him yes I love him deeply more than anything in this world.
It's a Saturday morning I woke up in his arm around my back and waist and mine around his torso I looked up and he's still sleeping , he looks like an angel while he's not awake , but once he's wide awake and he gets on his throne then he starts ruling the devils nation.
I tried to get his arm off of me without waking him and of course as always I failed.
"Where are you going ?" He asked in a sleepy voice and his arm just tightened around me more than it was.
"To take a shower , I'll come back" I said and kissed him where his jaw meets his neck well it was nearst spot to me ! He let me go and I got up to head to the bathroom but before I could exit the room I heard Zayn's phone buzzing on the dresser beside the bed and all of the sudden I wanted so badly to see who's messaging him , but no I can't do something like that , but comparing to what he does this is nothing , I made sure not make noises with my feet on my way to the his phone , I took it between my hands already feeling guilty , I unlocked it it didn't had a password anyway I saw 73 messages and 24 missed calls what the hell ? I Know it's Zayn malik but I didn't know that 'this' was something normal for him , his phone didn't stop buzzing , he received a lot of messages most of them from girls I opened one and it was written "HAPPYYYYY BIRTHDAAAAY TO DA BEST DUDE ALIVE love youuu :* and you know that I'm disponible tonight for you if you want to spend the night at my house tonight (I'm always disponible for you bae)" WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING ON ? Why is this bitch asking him to come and fuck her whenever he wants to ? Why is she calling him bae ? Why the hell does she even know him ? Or even have his number ? Does this bitch want to get killed ? Omg I swear she's way too lucky that I don't know her .
