Perks Of Introvert Life♥️

TOWRDS A NEW PATH

WARNING: FULL ON EXPLICIT STUFF AHEAD! IF YOU'RE A KID,PLEASE DON'T READ THIS CHAPTER!

I look at him, I lock my eyes with his. He's handsome. More handsome than Mohith, to be precise.
I can do this.

NO! THIS IS NOT YOU, YOU'RE BETTER THAN THIS. DON'T FALL INTO HIS LEVEL, PRAGATHI! YOU'RE A BETTER PERSON THAN YOUR EX!

My mind screamed.
Okay. I've made a huge mistake once not listening to my inner voice, I'm not doing it again.

Mohit can continue to be a worthless shit that he is, but this is wrong. We're both drunk. I will for sure regret what I'm going to do now, when I'm sober.
Not to mention, Chandan will still hang out with him even after I'm gone. If Mohith comes to know about this, it'll be awkward for Chandan.
Also multiple partners, HIV. Hello.

So, no.
I am fascinated by myself that I can think so clearly today.

I distance myself from Chandan, as he looks at me puzzled.

"We really shouldn't be doing this.
I don't think I can do this, it's not you but it's me. I honestly cannot. I hope you can understand." I say.

"Well it would've been fun, but if this is what you feel like, I respect you." He replies.

"Respect, huh? That's the one thing that I never received in that relationship!" I stutter.
Though this sentence is really dark, I'm weirdly happy. I don't feel the pain.

"That's really sad. You were in a very pathetic and toxic relationship.
But it's over now! Cheer up. I hope I consoled you at least a little bit." He says.

"Yes, you did. I feel a lot better now. Also, I've decided. He's dead to me now. I'll not shed a single tear for him anymore.
Also, I know you don't need to be consoled. You're doing so good, but I've to say this. She made you choose between your passion and her, you chose passion. A huge respect for you.
No, you're not selfish. You go my friend!
Thanks for being a good friend when I needed it the most! I appreciate it." I conclude.

"Always. You're a good person. You'll find someone way better. Someone who deserves you. Get over him." He conclded.

I took a nice nap and woke up sober, surprisingly, no hangover.
I bid Chandan 'bye' and rode home, feeling way better. Feeling liberated.

Okay. We need to create a game plan. A solid plan to get over this break up sooner.
I stuck with my words. I haven't cried a single tear since I talked to Chandan.
A cheater doesn't deserve to be cried over. Had this been an actual healthy and happy relationship, where we had to break up for any reason other than this, then it would have been a whole different scenario. It would have been fine to cry a lot then.

I have noticed that when I stay at home, it hurts the most. It's the damn memories that hurt more than the broken heart and trust.
I have so many things I have to ask him. I have to confront him so as to what he did to me and why did he do that.
Though I asked him not to stay in touch, I couldn't keep it. I ended up calling him.

"H- hi" he says.
"Hi" I reply.
"How are you doing?" He asks.
Is this a trick question?
"I'm doing good." I reply.
"I called you because," I continue "I wanted to know how far you have gone with her. Tell me." I say.

"IT'S ALL IN THE PAST NOW. WE'RE OVER NOW. I DON'T HAVE TO TELL YOU ANYTHING. WE ARE NOT IN A RELATIONSHIP ANYMORE! YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO ASK ABOUT THAT, HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND THAT! "
He cut the call.

PFFT. What a douche. It's like he thinks I want to get back with him desperately so I called.
Here's the tea, mister. I am not even vaguely trying to get back with you. What am I? Stupid?
I asked that because I don't know how many guys she had slept with before you. I don't want her fuckin germs in my body. Eww. To think you've kissed me with the same mouth which kissed that slut. Eww ewww!