Quartz at Moondance

I hate falling

I hate falling in love
Falling for you
Because it's just me
And you won't fall for me too

I hate that careless smile
You get just with me
And the way you smirk
When you make me blush

I hate those sparkly eyes
And how they roam my body

I hate those rosy lips
How you bite them to tease me
And how you lick them when you think
What you want to do to me

I hate that soft hair
And how I wish I could run my hands through it

I hate that mean tongue
And how you use it to fluster me

I hate your voice
So deep and confident

I hate the wrinkles on your eyes when you grin
And that button nose
How it huffs in content at my humourous gigs

I hate that you know you are handsome
And you play it against me
As if I wasn't already at your feet
Drooling in amazement

I hate your lean body
And the muscles under your skin
So warm and kind
How it makes me feel safe

You never touch me
You rarely see me
And even though we're miles away
You know me the best

I hate that I can't hate you
Even when when you hurt me the most

But I won't give up
I won't give in

That little space inside me
That belongs just to you
I'll burn it to ashes
I won't keep it no more

I won't shudder at your comments
Or put on a doll face
I won't keep waiting
Or ask how your day went

You don't love me
You don't care
So why should I?
You're not that different

I won't be just one more
Dying for your touch
Patiently waiting
For your return

I won't be like the others
Complying to every word
Because I deserve something better
I deserve so much more.