A Living Fancy

Epiphany

I sat on that side of the gutter for hours wallowing in my own disgrace. My arm bled out and the bone emerged from my skin. I couldn't move I was still hurt, my head was pounding and my clothes were still dirty.

I had to use the bathroom but I couldn't move so like the filth I was I peed on myself. My clothes were wet with urine.

I still didn't move, but again I was hungry but there was no where I could go where I coul- I cut myself off short because I remembered that tonight Alaan and I would go out to dinner but what would I wear? I didn't have a car my hair needed to be done and I smelled like urine I looked a mess.

I took some part of my damp soiled clothes and ripped it with all my might. I ripped pieces of my pants and put them on my arm to hide the wound.

I took some effort to get up but I did it. I had to lean on the wall to help the rest of my body up, I started to walk down the street and I just walked and walked I didn't know where I was going but I just kept walking.

I passed by many boutiques and stores that I would use to buy things from but even the fact of me even looking in the window would get glances from snotty rich people.

I didn't know where to go, the only place I could go was to the boutique but that place had a lot of memories of Tyler but I went anyways where else could I go?

When I got there I slipped through

The police tape and again walked around. This time, nobody was here I was all by myself I went in Tyler's office and never came out again, I knew I was going to stay here as long as I needed to and as the days grew I had to go out a beg for money, that was the worse thing I've ever ever had to do bedsides having kids with Tyler.

Everyday I would make about 3-5 dollars in change and save it to buy food for me & the kids growing inside of me. My life was pretty simple now, go to the streets get some money and save it. I didn't have a life where I was on top of everything I did.

When I returned to the boutique that night and slouched down on the floor where I slept and started to rub my stomach life for me was okay and it would be for the past few months as long as I kept my mouth shut and thanked god for everything blessing he gives me throughout life until my kids are born.