[Y/N] POV
Black...
All I see is black...
Everything is black...
I blink for a few times, looking...
Looking... for what?
I hear something... I can hear something... more like someone...
I can hear... a distant cry...
It sounds like... a baby... like a baby is crying...
But it's so distant...
"Wake up"
"Is this another fucked up dream?" I chuckled softly
"If I was you, I would do what I'm told to"
"Why should I take orders from a random voice from my he--"
I turn my head to the source of the voice and I see the woman that gave me life...
My beloved mother... only her...
But... what is she holding?
She's holding a child in her arms... a newborn...
"And when I thought you couldn't be a bigger idiot than you already are" she says sarcastically
"Why did you..."
"Can't even protect yourself... and you're expecting to protect others... to protect what was meant to be your family?"
I was looking at how she was frowning until she started to go away
"Where... where are you going?" I ask, holding out my hand
"Pathetic... idiot... helpless... a crybaby... you don't deserve anything"
"Why are you saying this..."
"You killed your own child while trying to play pretend, being the hero"
"I never did..."
"It's going to be better if I take them with me"
"No... no, no, no, no, no, no, no! Don't do that! Please..."
But it was all in vain... her figure started to fade in the darkness as the cries of the child were getting more and more muffled
"You can't do this!" I yelled, trying to get up. "You can't take my child away! You just... can't! Please..."
Don't do that...
No...
Please...
Please...
P-please...
.
.
.
I shot open my eyes, meeting the white ceiling, a dim light covering of what it looked like a hospital room
"The fuck..." I mutter, rubbing my forehead. "My head... hurts like hell..."
Memories from the last night's op start to fill my mind as I close my eyes for a bit
"Shirazu..." I mutter, letting out a deep sigh
Leaning with my back on the pillows from the bed, I close my eyes again
"I did everything I could to protect me... to protect us. It's not my fault... is that ghoul's fault... it's the whole freacking ghoul kind fault, not... mine... right?"
Or that's how I lie to myself to make me feel better...?
My thoughts were all cut off when the door creacked. I didn't look at who came, instead I looked on the window that was on my right, watching people and maybe even ghouls walk down the street. I didn't need to see who it was... their scent was way too familiar... It was the one and only Kuki Urie
"Are you okay, [Y/N]?" He asks, taking a seat on the chair next to the bed
"I guess..." I mutter. "What about you?"
He didn't reply, instead, he changed the topic
"Shirazu... he..."
"I know, I remember" I cut
"No... the doctors said it's a miracle, but he, Shirazu... he survived" he continues
"Wh-what?" I ask, turning my head to Kuki with a shocked expression. "You're not kidding... right?"
"Why should I be making fun of such things?"
"Oh my god" I exhale loudly, covering my mouth with my hands as some tiny tears of happiness form in the corner of my eyes
At least, some good news
"But..."
"But...?"
"He... isn't waking up. He's alive, but not waking up" exhaled Kuki
"Oh..." I sighed. "We just need to wait... we should be thankful he's alive. We'll just need to wait"
"And investigator Sasaki..."
"He can rot in hell for all I care" I cut, frowning
"He moved out of the Chateau"
"With or without him, is going to be the same" I smirked, quoting Sasaki
Urie let out a deep sigh, going silent for quite a long time
"I... I'm sorry" he says, frowning
"Huh? For what?" I ask confused
"I couldn't protect you... and you..." he replies, looking at the ground. "That fucker was right... Sasaki was right..."
"Hey, stop!" I frowned, taking his hands in mine. "Don't blame yourself, it's no one's fault, okay? And as much as it hurts me to say it, if it happened, it means it was meant to happen..."
He closed his eyes, still frowning and holding my hands
"I'm sorry... that I had to make you go through such things"
"It's no one's fault" I said, letting his hands go and placing his head in the crook of my neck, carresing his hair
It's no one's fault...
It's no one's fault...
Right?
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FanfictionBeing a CCG investigator was your dream since you were little. You wanted to be like your parents, to protect the people of Tokyo from monsters who feed from human flesh. These monsters are called ghouls and you always hated them. They killed your...
