Guns And Roses

Feelings

Ethan's POV:

I don't care to remember anything from the past, actually anything before Allison... It is really hard to accept the fact that she became my weakness.

people may think i'm overreacting but we are not normal kids, we've never been. Growing with the fear of death and the duty of kill makes you a paranoid unemotional person. or for my dad a guard dog.

We all break our rules for someone, right?

feeling her hair between my fingers, her sour-vanilla smell...

now as i think about these i don't even breathe just not to wake her up. Counting every eyelash of her is a joy at the moment.
Could this be love?

ew, no. I can't be a hopeless romantic guy, that's definitely not me.

I can have any woman i want, but mrs impossible looks more charming.

Stone cold guy melts for the girl.

What was so special about her? I mean yes she has a pretty face and confidence and great sense of humor and she is definitely well trained and goddamn that body... oh god she is perfect

I can't do this at least not now

I shouldn't overthink

I slightly get up, slowly pushing her to the pillows.

i go to the kitchen as i starch my head not expecting to see anyone there.

bad luck i guess because as soon as i enter the kitchen Grayson holds my arm roughly.
i was too careless to push him away so i just let him do his little show.

"what's going on between you two?"he asks. Actually i was expecting this

"umm, last time i checked we were freaking engaged with her Gray, what did you expect?" i reply with confidence.

I hate seeing him like this, desperate.

he lets me go but continues to talk.

" i will ask my father to get married with Allison."

wow, that was harsh, also childish.
Grayson thinks this is a game or a competition.

I know my brother even though everyone thinks i am the predator he is way much worse than me when it comes to something he can't have.

"Gray, this isn't a game"

"It's my game and you are not invited Eth."

" stop being ridiculous, you sound stupid"

" i said what i gotta say, now it's your move brother." he smirks putting the knife he had next to the bread he was cutting.

can things get more fucked up?

Grayson moves with his emotions unlike me. He lets his feelings decide his actions thats why he gets a little psycho sometimes.

There's nothing to worry about, i guess... i think as i hear the footsteps coming down from the stairs.

It was easy to understand that it's Allison from the spark in Grayson's eyes.

Here we go...