Guns And Roses

butterflies died

FLASHBACK:

His hands found their way to mine, in the crowded school corridor.

"I hate crowded places" I said as moving my body closer to him.

"It's not that bad" he smiled, putting his hand around my shoulders as he kept holding my hand. I felt pure happiness when I was with him. I felt wanted and loved.

"Hey are you still coming to the party tonight?" he turned his face to me, knowing my answer but still shooting his shot.

"I don't know, I honestly don't want to."

"It's the first day of sophomore year, you can't miss this party, baby please." he begged with his puppy eyes.

"Oh camon, you know I can't resist those eyes.. Fine, I will come" I roll my eyes, stating that I gave up.

He let me go from his embrace when we finally reached the parking lot.

"Do you need a ride?" he asked

"No, it is okay, Bella should be here soon" I reply still admiring his facial features.

"Yo, Alex, let's go already !" Eric shouted from the other side of the road, distracting me from watching him.

His wavy brunette hair swung in the wind when he turned his face to greet Eric, his best friend.

"I'm coming!" he shouted back. He turned back to me to kiss me, making me feel the butterflies all over again when his soft lips touched mine.

"I will see you tonight" he caressed my cheek before starting to walk towards Eric.

Butterflies flying in my stomach didn't look like they were gonna stop any time soon, making me blush as I turned back to the road shielding my phone from the sun to call Bella.

Then it happened.
All those butterflies died

I heard a loud crash noise. In seconds many thoughts came through my mind, and I slowly turn around praying for it not to be real.

That was when I saw him. His wounded body, laying in the middle of the road, floating in blood.

I couldn't believe what I just saw. My body froze for a second which felt like a lifetime before I ran to him.

"Baby no, Alex lo.. look at me, please look at me.." I cried not being able to control my actions or words. When I picked his head up and embraced him in my lap, my hands wait no, my whole body was shaking.

"I-am fin..e don't cry.." he tried to talk but the blood coming out of his mouth stopped him.

"Shh.. I know... you will be fine.. don't tire yourself.. I'm here." I cried

People were just watching, not doing anything.. it drove me crazy.

I watched him close his eyes slowly, not being able to do anything to save him...

"Please.. please don't leave me.. I love you.." my hands were covered with his blood.

I screamed in pain, observing his face trying to find a sign to prove that he is still, with me and alive.

Half an hour later cops and the ambulance reached the scene.

I was still holding him, as tight as the first time, remembering everything about him, about us...

"Allison, we should go home... let them take him." Bella touched my shoulder with hesitation while making the workers wait to respect my last moments with him.

I felt like my heart was tearing into two, and it was bleeding not allowing me to breathe but on the outside, I was numb. I wasn't even crying anymore, my tears dried at my cheeks, leaving me with red eyes that burned from crying. I was still looking at his beautiful face, sleeping peacefully. I didn't want to let him go... Because If I did.. then it all would be real...

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Today

"wait" Grayson stopped for a second and stepped away from holding my body as he slowly let me go.

I followed his motions with my eyes and waited for him to continue.

"why a machine gun? And wait, after all this time why me? Are you playing a little game with me again baby?" he questioned leaving me speechless.

"You know why" I replied quietly, trying to move closer to him.

"Do I?" he wondered as he walked around my room, sliding his fingers through the bookshelves, and then he stopped.

I was just watching him torture me as he didn't break the silence.

"Who's that?" he grabbed a frame from behind among all of the pictures I had in my room. He exhaled towards it to blow the settled dust on it. As he slowly tried to take a closer look at it, I could feel nervousness filling up my body. I immediately realized what it was but didn't want to react to not make him suspicious, but to be honest all I wanted was to take it away from him as fast as I can and never let anyone else see it.

"I don't... know. Let me see" my hands slowly climbed up to his muscular shoulders as I observed the framed picture without even breathing.

He slightly turned his head to the left horizontally taking a better look, and kind of scaring me.

"He is an old friend of mine" I finally answered.

"Where is he now?" he asked turning to me, staring at my face, observing every facial expression I make.

After hearing that question something inside me light up, not in a good way but more like a warning. I could feel the flame climbing up my back, making me feel dizzy.

"I don't know, I told you, he is just an old friend Gray. Now tell me. How fast can you find me a machine gun?" I replied sweeping away the hair from my face without trying to make him suspicious.

"tomorrow" he replied as he left the photo back on the shelf.