Guns And Roses

Insane

     I woke up with a smile on my face everyday after the ball.  Trying to decide which twin was better. I felt like a bitch because thinking about both of them.

"Allison! Come on we should leave for shopping!" my mother shouted. She was so excited about the wedding.  I like Ethan but this doesn't mean that I want to marry him or Grayson. I am not that type of girl who wants to get married young.

When I arrived the hall I could see my brothers looking at us. Guess they weren't happy about the news either.

My Instagram notifications were all about "congrats" and  "new best couple" comments. It will be the most talked wedding after  Kim Kardashians' .

My mom stopped at a luxury wedding designer. We got out if the car and see my sister smiling with excitement. Before we got in I could see my best friend Crystal walking to the door. When I slide the glass door to open I could smell the luxury. White walls were following the whole welcoming room.

"Welcome to Alexa Cristanonela" a woman welcomed us. While I was gazing around like a little kid I heard a familiar voice. As I turn around I see Grayson smiling to me. He walks to me as he checks me out.

"Hey, what are you doing here?" I ask "Actually we are here to get our suits for the umm, you know for the ... wedding." He says I fake smile to him and told him that I had to go.

While my mum was checking the wedding dresses I was trying to convince my self that this wasn't a dream or a nightmare. To be honest the dresses were amazingly designed.

"Hi Mrs. Argent" a woman greets my mum. "How can I help you today?" She asks. Oh she was Alexa Cristanonela!
"We are here to find my daughter a wedding dress for her special day."she says with proudness. Lies!
"Oh I heard that the groom and his best men are already here." she says. Hmm which one do you think is my man? was the question in my mind.

"Alright Allison what kind of dress do you want and what are the prices we are talking about?" Before I could even answer my mum cut me of and ; "there is no price limit!" She said.

For a second I imagined that if this was  the wedding that I have always wanted, with the love of my life. " I'd like tight around my waist, and maybe a little sparkle with a big skirt and maybe a long tail?" I answered without  knowing what I exactly wanted.
"Hmmm I will bring you some dresses" she said and another worker served us some champagne.

After a while she brought us the most elegant and luxury wedding dresses I have ever seen. All of these were too much for a "fake"wedding. 

I went into the dressing room to try on the dress I liked the most. When I wore the wedding dress  I knew that it was the one. I stared to my vision for a while and I could feel the tears coming down through my cheeks. It wasn't supposed to be like this. While I continued to stare Crystal came to check on me. She knew everything, she hugged me and I couldn't help myself and cry. 

"I am sorry" she said. It wasn't her fault. My youth... My dreams...  "Iam strong. I am strong ..." I kept replaying that sentence in my head. I wiped my tears and got out of the dressing room. 

I could see that everyone was adoring me. Then I saw the twins and my dad. They were also staring. Grayson, he was speechless so was Ethan. My dad came towards to me and hugged me. Okay this was too emotional for a dress shopping.  Then when the twins also came here the woman asked me; "Is this your dress?"  I was nervous. I wanted to wear this to my wedding, not to my dads' alliance wedding. 

"Can we have sec please?" Ethan asked everyone to leave. I was surprised actually. When everyone left, he grabbed my hands and looked into my eyes. He didn't look like a player anymore. He looked... He looked so innocent. 

"I know this isn't what you dreamed of. I also know that I am not your dream man. But I promise you that, I will treat you like I would have treated my wife." he said. That was cute. 

"Ethan I-"   "Allison, look at the mirror. Look at us. Look at your beautiful dress which is a reflection of your beautiful, innocent soul.." God he sounded like Saint. "Did you like it?" I nod and he calls for the shop manager to buy the dress. 

I uncontrollably smile.

One day he is a douchebag, the other day he is a player and then suddenly he is a gentleman. But in all situations he knows how to play with me and my emotions. Even though I don't love him he makes me go crazy which forces me to do everything he wants. 

What is that thing called? If I don't find out soon I am sure I will go insane.