"You left me..."

Running p1

COLBYS P.O.V

I walked up the stairs after grabbing another apple and putting the things we got from the store away. I slowly walked past Sam's room and noticed that his door was open a little bit, I walked in hesitantly, once I was fully in his room his sent hit me hard. My eyes were threatening to let the tears spill that were forming in my eyes and making my vision blurry. I fell to my knees then looked up, my head then hung low, and I looked around. It was so...empty, like he was never here. I continued to look around, I got to his closet and I opened the door, I then was shocked at what I saw. It was a jacket like 2 sizes bigger then Sam, I took the jacket and it smelled like him,(yes that's weird I'm sorry-A/N) there was also a not attached to it, it read

"Dear Colby, I'm so sorry you had to find out like that. I NEVER had the courage to tell you that I was leaving to go back to the place I was trapped in for so long. I couldn't look you in the eyes and say 'I'm leaving' and it brakes me that I couldn't say anything.and I know its selfish to say so. I got you this replica of my favorite hoodie for you, if you did not already notice. Please don't give up and by the time you find this, you will probably already know that I choose Elton to help look after you. I know I'm not going to be around, but once I come back I promise I Will NEVER LET YOU GO ever again, and once I get back I want to tell you something that I never got to say, because I was a cowered and could not tell you. Seems like I can't tell you something if I know it's going to brake you. I never wanted you broken and that's exactly what I did. I hate myself for it. Just know that when you look at the moon or stars at night I'm going to be looking too.
LOVE,
Your best friend, Sam. <3

I was in tears. I folded I the piece of paper put it in my pocket, took the hoodie and ran to my room with a loud slam. After the door slammed I locked it put the hoodie on. I have long forgotten my apple, and am now crying in my room like the pathetic person that I am,in a ball, on my bed. I did not want to be here with out Sam next to me I just have to wait till dark to let my thoughts roam. I then fell asleep crying and having the voice screaming at me to cut. "Do it, no one will care. It's not like it's hurting anyone, except you."  I didn't listen to the voice. I can't let it take me again, I won't let it take me again. I slowly fell I'm to a safe yet venerable sleep.

6 hours later

I woke up in a cold sweat. Then memories fluted my mind, I took my phone off the charger and looked at the time 11:00p.m. I then take off my shoes because I slept in them on accident. I then take off the hoodie because it really hot. I put it Oma hanger and put it in my closet then walk over to my door unlock it and made my way down the stairs silently because it's 11 and I'm not sure if people are asleep or not. I made my way down the stairs and go to the kitchen because I have a really bad migraine and need some pain killers. I made it to the kitchen and find Jake there getting water. Once he notices me he nearly chokes on his water. I mean I know I don't look the best but he did not have to rub it in. Once he finishes choking on his water he looks like he's seen a ghost, just like Aaron this morning. "Dude, are you ok? You have blood shot eyes and you look way paler then normal." Jake questioned "First, keep your voice down I have a damn headache and if you wake the others then it's on you. Second, I'm fine." He stood there shocked, like I never told him to shut the hell up before. Then he just stared like I was a completely different person. "Sorry and ok." Was all I got from him before he walked off probably to his room. Just great I have to apologize later for telling him to shut up because of the stupid headache. I find the pills take 2 and get a glass of water. Then I take the pills and chug the water so that I could swallow. I was also hoping it would numb the empty felling I have, but no. Since Jake said I also had blood shot eyes I look for the eye drops. I find them and drip them in my eyes. I then walk out of the kitchen and walk straight into Jake. "I'm sorry" I say quickly then back up so there's some distance "no problem" he responds, *sarcasem* ^at least it's not weird.^ He then began to walk up the stairs to his room, I quickly stop him and apologize for telling his to shut up before. He said it was all good and that he understood. He has no idea what goes on I'm my head so he really does not understand anything. I have a feeling I'm going to be apologizing a lot in the next few days. "Go back into the kitchen and get the pills, maybe then you could be free." The stupid voice says. I shrug it off but go back into the kitchen and grab my anti-depressants. I take one then put them away so I'm not tempted to overdose. I walk back up into my room and grab my hoodie that says 'NORMAL PEOPLE SCARE ME' and put it on then get my shoes back on. I leave my phone because everyone else is asleep and I'll be back before 8:00a.m. So it doesn't mater then I walk out of my room grab my keys that were by the door then slowly open the door, only to be stopped by Elton clearing his throught. "What are you doing?" He said sternly. "N-Nothing" stupid studder, it gives me away every time. "Really, like I'm going to believe that." I sigh in defeat and I then look at him "sorry I lied, I just...wanted to go for a walk, to you know, clear my head." He nods his head then right before I walk out the door he says "do you have your phone in case I need you?" I hung my head low and said "no" I could feel his eyes on me "go get it then." I look up and walk up to my room to get it, I did then walked right back to were I was when Elton caught me. He was now on he cloutch he then spotted me, he gave me a nod. I walked out of the house and to the abandoned building me and Sam would go to clear our heads,but now it's just... me. I made my way up to the roof and sat down dangling my legs over the edge. It felt nice just to be able to breath for a Minute. The I grabbed my phone and put on 'bullet' by Hollywood undead put it on repeat and sat there till a quarter till 6 in the morning.

TO BE CONTINUED..........
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