"You left me..."

Hold on

SAMS P.O.V
I fell asleep on the way back to California. I dint mind though, I was the most sleep I had gotten in awhile, but then there was also that same felling but it was worst then when I first fell it. Once we landed we got to his car and he started to drive back to the house but it felt like I sould go somewhere, "you ok?" Elton broke the silence, "ya, why?" "Are you sure? You don't look like your ok? What's up?" I sigh "I don't know, I just...have a bad felling, I don't know how to explain it." " hey," he looks at me slightly before helots back at the road, " it's going to be ok, to be quite honest, I don't know how much longer Colby could have kept acting like he was ok, or how much longer he could make it with out you." He slightly chuckles at the end of his sentence, then I clicked, "WHERES COLBY?!!?!?!" He looked like he just hit with a truck, then he studdered, "I-I left hi-him at the house." He then pulled over and quickly pulled out his phone and turned it on, once it was all the way on he had 30 missed calls from Brennen, and over 25 texts and voice mails from him, Aaron, Corey,And Jake. He looked at the first text from Brennen, "WERE THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHY ARENT YOU ANSWERING YOUR PHONE!?!???!???" He kept scrolling down and my heart almost stopped at what I read from Brennen, "look I don't know we're you are right now or why your not answering your phone but I think you should call me as soon as possible, Colby... Just call me back when you get this, if you even care Anymore." I look at Elton and he looks at me, I then took a deep breath and calmed down so I wouldn't blow up on Elton, "Call Brennen, N-now pl-please." I was trying my best not to kill him on the spot. He quickly called Brennen and petition speaker, Brennen picked up after the 6th ring, " well look he finally decided to call me back," before Elton could say anything I started to talk, "First off, stop being a prick,he came to help me, and secondly WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH COLBY, and thirdly hey Brennen it's been a minute hasn't it." He seemed to mumble something and then I heard him realize who just yelled at him. "YOU WERE GOING TO GET SAM AND YOU DIDN'T THINK TO SAY SOMETHING ELTON!?!?!?!?!? and it's nice to hear your voice again Sam." I smile then it quickly fades and I speak again, "why don't you say it a little louder Bren, maybe you could wake up the entire world next time." He just chuckled then Elton spoke, "WERE ARE YOU, ME AND SAM WILL BE THERE FACE TO FACE ONCE YOU TELL USE WERE YOU ARE!!!" "OK,ok calm down Elton, me, Jake, Aaron, and Cory are at the um...hospital. I would just get here I'll explain why we're at the hospital once you get here." Then the line went dead. He quickly drove back onto the road and made his way to the hospital.
10 minutes later
We arrived at the hospital but before Elton found a parking space he let me out of the car, once I walk in I see the guys and quietly walk over to them with out them noticing, I pop up behind Corey and everyone brakes out into smiles while Corey just stood there confused, once he turned around and saw me he instantly raped me into a tight hug and was basically screaming "you can't leave like that again." I hug back just as tight and say I won't, once he lets go everyone else tackles me into a hug, once they were done hugging me they all seemed to stop smiling and I keep why, I didn't see Colby, it made me worry when Brennen noticed he told me to follow him, I was shaking, I didn't want to see what happened to my best friend and my crush. Once we were out side a door he explained what happened to him, I couldn't help but think it was my fault, if I had never left, Colby wouldn't ever have been in a stupid hospital bed and he might have been with me, I don't know but, it's just a thought. When he was done explaining, he left me alone outside of Colby's door, I mentally, emotionally and physically, brace myself to see the person I love, in a hospital bed. I take a deep breath while I slowly open the door, once I was all the way in the room I closed the door behind me and walked over to his bed side. I sit down in the chair that was already there and let a few tears fall, I took his hand into mine and just lightly squeeze his hand, then let a small stream of tears and hushed sobs escape me, i was like that for a few minutes till I looked back up, I still had his hand in mine,I kiss his hand and start talking so that if he can hear the things around him, I at least want him to know that I'm actually here and that I'm not leaving anytime soon. "Colby,I have no way of telling if you can hear me or not but if you can... I want you to know that I'm right here, I'm not leaving and if you can't tell who it is talking to you right now, it's me, it's Sam and I promise you, I'm not going to leave you alone again, I not going to leave ever again,Colby, I know you got my hoodie I left you, I know you got the note. I want to tell you what I wanted to tell you when I got back, the thing I wanted to tell you is...," I was slightly choking on my own words, air, and tears, after I collected myself again, I spoke again, "tell you is... Is that I-I love yo-you, I love you with every fiber of my being and that will never change, I love you more then my best friend, I don't know if you can hear me but, I don't ever think I can tell you how much I love you because I don't know how to tell you, Colby I don't know if you feel the same or if you even love me in the same way but, I don't think I can tell you face to face about how much I love you because I don't want to make a fool out of myself, I know, I know, that a selfish thing to say, but I couldn't handle it if you didn't fell the same and I was to screw everything up between us, Colby I NEVER WANT TO LEAVE YOU AGAIN OR SCREW ANYTHING UP BETWEEN US, I love you and I will do everything in my power to protect you, do everything and/or anything for you, even if we never get together, I will do everything I can to always make you smile or laugh, I would give you the world, tell you no ones ever going to hurt you, and tell you sweet little things to distract you from yourself and/or the negative voices in you head, I would do anything for you, even if it meant that I had to give up my life for you I would. I never want to disappoint you but, I feels like I already have.," I take a deep breath and start speaking again "I love you, and I just confessed how much I do, so I'm asking you, begging you to please give me a sign that you can hear me, anything please," my voice was shaky and I didn't know if it would work,then he weakly squeezed my hand and moved his finger. I squeeze his hand back and let the tears fall, he had heard me, I was smiling and I could tell that he wouldn't wake up till morning, I looked at the time it was 11 at night which meant that the guys went home and let me stay with Colby. I climbed into the hospital bed with Colby to let him know that I wasn't going anywhere, I laid my head over his heart so that I knew that he was still breathing and actually with me, I heard him take a deep breath as I slightly moved, before I fell asleep with Colby I whispered to him one last time, " I love you Colbs, goodnight. I hope to see you in the morning." After that I closed my eyes and drifted to sleep with Colby next to me.
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A/N
Ok, so I'm not going to lie, I cried while writing Sam's confession because I would do that exact same things for my best friends and I wouldn't regret any of it. Sorry if that's cheesy but it's the truth. I hope you liked this chapter, I think it's one of the best chapters in this book so far, what do you think? Please vote for this chapter, you don't have to, I don't care. Sorry if it's crappy, I tried😕
Word count: 1632
It's a lot but...since I haven't been posting a whole lot I thought I would give you a long chapter so ya, hope you liked it the next chapter will be out tomorrow or Wednesday if not then Friday, I promise I'm trying.
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