"You left me..."

Trying

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⚠️WARNING: THE FOLLOWING WILL CONTAIN ABUSE AND CUTTING
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SAMS P.O.V

I lost count of how many hours I have been in my old room I don't bother in trying to unpack because I didn't bring all my things, Just clothes. All my things are back in California and not in Kansas.my stuff is in the storage space that the house had, so I didn't have much with me just my clothes, phone that I secretly have, and the charger for it. I was pulled out of my thoughts by my father coming in, I was glad I put my phone in my closet, hidden in a box, surrounded by clothes. He then pulled me up by my shirt and dragged me down to the living room, while he was spitting mean things at me. He was drunk, I could tell because I smelled vodka, which would also mean that my mom would join in on what they call 'fun'. At this point I could barely feel anything, i felt hollow, empty, numb, ext. but I was not happy, I wanted Cloby, but I couldn't have him, I want him so bad, I want the love of my life back,my best friend, my everything, I want it back, I need it back. As I was pushed around some more, they finally decided to hit me. First blow always hurts the worst because it's the beginning of at least 2-3hours, the first one to hit me is my mom then my dad it's like this every night so far, I've only gotten out of it once while I've been here. "You are a poor excuse for a son." My mom spat then she slapped me, now it was my dads turn "a waste of space" he punched me "a waste of oxygen" then another, "a waste of money, time and life." He hit me 3 times after that sentence. It continued till they were both satisfied. Once they were done I could barley move, I was bleeding from my head because my mom hit me over the head with a empty vodka bottle, I'm lucky to even be breathing right now.  I dragged my self into the bathroom to clean up all the blood and to take care of my bruises from my parents. I looked in the mirror and I was covered in blood, alcohol, and bruises, head to toe. I really wish I had Colby to save me, but I needed to be strong, for Colby. I wince in pain as I clean my wounds and cuts, once I was done I walked into my room went to my closet and got a new pair of clothes, I felt really heavy like I was about to collapse, I grabbed the phone knowing my parents were asleep on the coutch and I would have to clean up in the morning. I texted Elton and asked if Colby was ok.
S=Sam E=Elton
S=hey how's Colby?
E=he's been better,he didn't come home till like 7:00 this morning and now he's in his room asleep.
S=sounds like Colby. Hey I left a hoodie I'm my closet for Colby,maybe you could give that to him for me? Please
E=I would but...Colby already found it. He's asleep in it right now. Like if he takes it off he would disappear, at least that's what it looks like.
S= really? That was sort of fast. Well I'm not complaining about it, so how have you been?
E=I'm fine really just tired, I've been up checking on Colby and making sure he does not do anything stupid. What about you, how are you? And don't lie to me.
S=I've been way better,all I want is to be next to Colby, and just be with him. Not in this hell hole of a 'home'. I'd rather be with him, and the rest of you.
E=then why don't you come home?
S=I'm going to try a little later in time, because if I try now, I will be tracked down by my parents, literally.
E= ok, try to make it a little sooner then later I don't know how long Colby can go with out you. It's hard enough for him to get out of bed in the mornings, let alone do something with us.
S=I know, I promise I'm trying.
E=I have to go. Colby is screaming, I will text you later about what happened. Ok?
S=k, please have him be ok.
E=I'll try, bye.
S=bye

I put my phone on the charger and hid it again I could hear some moving down stairs, but ignore it because I know they would not come upstairs after midnight. I hid in my closet with my phone and had it on a light vibration in case Elton texted me about Colby, I slowly started to fall asleep because my body hurt and I feel drained. I closed my eyes and hoped that Colby would be ok, all I could think about or see in my mind was Colby and what could have happened to him. It worried me, but at least in my dreams I get to have Colby and be able to call him 'mine'. I lightly smile at that thought and drift off into a light sleep.

COLBYS p.o.v
I woke up in a cold sweat, the voice was screaming at me and I couldn't take it."your a waste of space, air, and life. What are you still doing here, no one cares. Just fucking kill you self already." It felt like it was sounding and pushing me to do something I haven't done in years
"Grab your damn blade and cut you piece of shit." I was crying and looking for my blade then once I found one I held it in my hand and looked at it like it was an unknown object.
"JUST FUCKING DO IT ALREADY! ITS NOT GOING TO HURT ANYONE,only you. So just drag it across your wrist already!" I looked at the blade in fear. Then I did a dumb thing, I throw it, then screamed, it only got the voice more angry,"you piece of shit, look what you did, you are a disappointment in the flesh,you can't even do one simple thing. No wonder Sam left you." It only made me cry harder because I was starting to believe it, I was so close to giving in, I really am a disappointment. I curl into a ball in the corner and cry then my door burst open. I was face to face with Elton, he looked really worried and I just looked at him with fear in my eyes. " he doesn't care, he's just pretending.he's only here because Sam told him to be when something like this happens." The voice was loud I managed to look at Elton with sorrow. He then asked me a question "Colby what's wrong?" All I could do was point to were I had thrown the blade, he walked over to were I pointed and he picked it up, put it in his pocket and walked back over to me. He took my arms and looked at them carefully, once he found that I did not do anything he pulled me into a hug and would not let go. I sat there till I was almost asleep again, then he talked again " Colby, I maybe new to this and not know what to do in this type of situation but I do care I know you don't think so but I do, and that is a promise I won't let you forget" he put me in my bed and continued, "I'm going to get Brennen, because I know you open up to him just as much as you did Sam,but not as much as you would Sam." I nod my head and he pulls out his phone maybe 10 minutes later I hear the front door and Brennens voice. He lightly taps on my door and I sit up, he pops his head in and I motion him to come in. He comes in and closes the door behind him, he then comes over to me and sits down next to me, just as Sam would. He then pulls me in a hug and let's me cry. He does not open his mouth to speak or do anything, he just lets me vent. Then I calmed down, I but still had a few tears rolling down my face. I looked at the time on his watch it was 2:30 in the morning. I felt bad for dragging Brennen into this."I'm sorry" I say quietly,"for what?" He asks in a quiet voice "for dragging you into this, for making you worry about a nobody like me." "YOU ARE NOT A NOBODY!," he whisper yells "I'm glad you had Elton call me, because I know I'm the closest thing you have to an image of Sam, even though I don't look like him, I can act like him." "But I don't want an act, I want him." I started to cry a little more, Brennen knew how I felt towards Sam, so it was a little weird but he never let it show, he shipped Solby, so I don't mind having Brennen to talk to. "I know you don't want an act Colby, but I'm the closest thing you got at acts like him right now." He said in a calming voice. Then he pulled me down, we were laying down, he then stroked my head and told me to sleep once I drifted off to sleep I could not get Sam off my mind again, I imagined that Sam was the one laying next to me, like old times when he would help me calm down, then on instinct I cuddled closer, but Brennen did not move he knew I would do something like this because I did it before. I then slipped into a light sleep but not light enough to wake me up easily.
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Hope you enjoyed. I tried to make a part were Sam had a p.o.v sorry if it's crappy.
Word count: 1771
At the end of the book in going to add up all the words and see how many that I wrote and that you read.
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