Months have passed since I tried to end everything, and life's been okay so far. I moved in with Tom so he can keep an eye on me. I haven't spoken to Danny since I was in hospital so when he comes over to see Tom I usually just go in my room and put music on. I'm not ready to face him yet, I can't even bear to hear his voice. No-one can make me face him if I don't want to.
I don't really go out anymore. I see a psychologist every week but it isn't really helping. I just want to feel better, but it makes it worse that I'm not allowed to go out on my own. How am I going to get a job if I can't be alone, I don't exactly plan on living with Tom forever. I need my own life back, I don't want to be sat doing all the time. I want to make a better life for myself and sort out my problems. I do need to see Danny at some point, I know I can't avoid him forever.
I tried looking for jobs but in all honesty I just want my old job back. I miss it so much! Maybe I could go work in a cafe or a bar or something. I just need to get myself work and get things back on track.
