Burn It UpSummary:
"Hey," Yoongi says. "It's okay, what's up?"
"I — " Jimin stutters. "They — I dunno, hyung, I don't — I think they might have fucked up my dosage or — I don't — " His voice cracks and he swallows, a little involuntary noise spilling out of his mouth as he tries to catch his breath.
Yoongi's eyes widen in realization, something cold and numb slithering around his heart and squeezing so tight he feels like he's suffocating.
"I think I'm in — "
Notes:
this fic was originally supposed to be about jimin's issues but it ended up being way more about yoongi's...whoops
(also please forgive any mistakes, this is largely unbeta'd & i'm trying very hard to get it done before i start on my nanowrimo project >.>)
Chapter Text
There are a lot of things that Yoongi doesn't like about being an Alpha.
In fact, Yoongi would go ahead and say that he outright hates it. Most of the time Yoongi is most comfortable just pretending that he isn't one at all. He doesn't volunteer the information. With ninety percent of the population being Betas, it isn't like it's especially difficult to get by without the fact that he's an Alpha being brought up.
Sure, it's public information (anyone could find out with about thirty seconds of Googling), but for the most part people seem content to forget. Up until the moment some emcee brings it up on a broadcast, and then it's all, "Oh, you really don't seem like an Alpha," or "Is it hard to be in a group with someone older than you?" or "Your dongsaengs much have such a hard time!" And Yoongi has to smile and nod and Namjoon will say something about how it isn't really a big deal, and Jimin will laugh and talk about how Yoongi is really a saint, a wonderful hyung, all while Yoongi will knot his fingers in the material of his jeans and tries not to visibly scowl.
And that's really the crux of the matter. He'd known that he was an Alpha for as long as he could possibly remember — it's not something that actually fucking mattered until he presented as a teenager, but that didn't stop his parents from warning him about his temper every two seconds, or his classmates taking every chance to blame whatever violent shit they could on him, or the way that Yoongi always expected himself to wake up one morning and snap like a twig in a hurricane.
Alphas are supposed to be assertive. Dominant. Alphas are supposed to boss people around, get what they want, take no shit.
Yoongi isn't like that. It had taken him a long time to figure it out — to wizen up and realize that all of that is just cultural myth (Namjoon had used that phrase once). The only thing being an Alpha really means about him is that he has a fucking knot. Yoongi's quiet, maybe even a little shy on occasion, and goofy — and his tolerance for shit is actually pretty high, if he says so himself.
And Yoongi just — he doesn't like the image of Alpha , doesn't like the way it makes people treat him, doesn't like the thought of shoving Omegas around, doesn't like the way his skin crawls every time he hears the word applied to him.
Yoongi isn't even especially big on the thought of being able to mate with someone. (Which is just — not a big deal. It doesn't mean much more than having heats and ruts sync up, but it's something that you can only do once, with one particular person.) All anyone ever seems to have to say on the subject is that Yoongi could claim someone, sink his teeth into their neck and stake his claimand it just — it makes Yoongi uncomfortable. He doesn't own anyone.
