The Gridiron Princess

Chapter 4: A Mental Breakdown

     I feel like my life is over now. I have no idea what I'm going to do anymore. I mean I don't understand I was just talking to him the night before; what could have happened between last night and this morning? I lay there thinking of what my life will be like now that my father is dead. Mt father was my best friend and I don't know how to live without him. He was my inspirational and my coach for football. Who am I suppose to talk to about football or other situations.

     I went to school and had the worst day of my life. I really didn't want to go to school or see anyone for that matter. The day went by really fast and it was time for practice. I didn't want to go to that either. I had the worst practice as well. It just felt like I lost a part of me that I will never be able to get back. I sat down on the bench and a guy came over to me. He had blonde short hair with green eyes. He sat down beside me and said, "Hey, the names Greyson and your Chelsea right?"

     "Yeah that's me."

     "So what happened I mean the first day you were on point with the throwing and now it seems like your going downhill now. What happened?"

      "I don't really want to talk about it."

      "I understand I just wanted you to know that if you ever need anyone to talk to well I'm a great listener."

      I half smiled and said, "Thank you." He got up and left, so I left and got dressed and then tried to leave, but before I could leave Luke came up and asked, "Can I give you a ride home?"

     "No that's fine I just want to be left alone right now."

     He looked disappointed when I said that, but I just kept walking because I really didn't want to deal with him.

    My dad's funeral was the next day and I went with my mom. It was the saddest day of my life I just couldn't stopped crying, but I knew I had to say something at his funeral to have closure. So when the person speaking asked, "Does anyone have anything to say?"

     I stood up and said, "I do." I walked over to the podium and looked at everyone that came and I began speaking, "I have no idea where to begin this speech. My dad was the greatest man anyone could have met. He always tried to help other people no matter what happens to him. He loved everyone he met no matter who they were he would always show his love toward you. My father helped me through everything. He showed me how to play football and he was my best friend. I found this poem that says everything that I'm trying to say, so here it goes: My father is a man like no other, He gave me life, nurtured me, taught me, dressed me, fought for me, held me, shouted at me, kissed me, but most importantly loved me unconditionally. There are not enough words I can say to describe just how important my father was to me and what a powerful influence he continues to be. I love you dad. I thank everyone of you who came here to help our family. He probably loved everyone of you. Thank you." I walked off wiping my tears away.

      Once the funeral was over my mom went to a friends house while I went home. When I got home I looked all around and then I saw all of the pictures of my dad and that's when I lost it. I started to have a mental breakdown. I started to throw things like pictures of me and my dad and everything else that brought back memories of him. I was crying so much and I just couldn't control my anger and the sadness I had. Once I was done with the throwing I just screamed and cried and that's when I noticed Luke was standing right outside my door. I turned around and asked, "What are you doing here?"

      "Greyson said that he thought something was up with you and I thought the same thing, so I wanted to see what was up and that's when I came in and you were destroying your things, so can you please tell me what is wrong?"

      "My father past away like 3 days ago while he was in the military.The worst part was after our first game that we lost and when you dropped me off I talked to my dad on the phone and told him about the game and about you and everything, then he told me he had to go because something was happening and I was the last one to talk to him before he died. My father meant everything to me. He taught me how to play football, how to walk, how to love someone who needs it, and most importantly to not take things for granted. I don't know how I'm going to live without him here with me."

     "Look Chelsea your dad loves you like no other and he will still love you. I also know how it feels to love someone and then have to let them go. I do and it sucks with all of the pain."

      "I think I'm going to quit football."

      "You can't quit your our star player and besides your dad wouldn't want you to quit. Just like you said that I need to play for myself and my brother and that's what you need to do. Play for yourself and your dad. Please just do it for me."

        I looked at him with tears coming form my eyes and said, "Yeah I will. I won't quit or anything. And I will definitely play for myself and for my dad. I am going to make him proud of me."

      "Your dad is already proud of you, but I'm glad that your still playing. The team wouldn't be the same without you."

       He smiled and wiped my tears and leaned into kissed me, but I stopped him and said, "Look if I'm going to stay on the team there's something we should make clear about us. I know I just got here and all and we have already kissed, but I really think we took things a little too fast, so I think we should slow things down a little bit and remain friends. Okay?"

      "Okay." He said that so disappointing and I felt bad because I didn't mean to hurt him or lead him on. I felt really bad, but I really think that I shouldn't have a boyfriend right now and I had to tell him sooner or later even though I really liked him a lot and I hoped when I'm not in a totally completed mess like I am today than maybe we could try it again.

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I finally finished another update. I hope you like it! Tell me what you thought of Chelsea's mental breakdown with her dad's death? And do you think Chelsea made the right decision with calling it off with Luke or not? Tell me by voting and commenting. Everyone have a nice day!

Song: Dad, you're my hero (From a daughter to a father)