I look around telling myself I found a better life, a twinkle in the eye of who I'm supposed to love. I think for a second this is the life put the blunt to my lips and pause. A stroke of my finger and the light flickers on, one two three and I pass the blunt on. That's when the sadness kicks in. I think to the past, I gave u everything for the first three months then i felt unloved so I held back. You started seeing other people or so I had thought. I put pressure on you expecting you to come back. The liquor came in the drugs came in the lying came in. The beginning of the end. Of your love for me and my trust for you. I had forced my fears into reality. One thing never will end my love for you. I know that you think I'm lying and I'm sorry for everytime I hurt you and I wish that those people never got between us. I wish that I had not changed. I wish that I had chosen you. I wish that I could fix everything. Like I said though I would be sitting in the sidelines watching you marry the perfect man. My love for you is endless unkillable I will forever be waiting for you. My biggest regret is not caring enough to see that you were being destroyed I wish that we could have seen our child born.
I'm sorry if I continue to hurt you.
Just know you are still my only love.
