sorry if this chapter is formatted weirdly haha im still learning how to format these types of chapters🙃
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you hummed as your phone dinged, curious as to who was texting you at 3am. you opened your phone, rolling your eyes as you stared at the 3 dots that popped up on your screen from none other than your ex, brandon arreaga.
brandon🐝
it's been 2 years, y/n.
y/n❤️
and? what about it? i'm fine
without you.
brandon couldn't say that that didn't sting.
brandon🐝
please let me explain myself.
you sighed loudly and groaned. your mind racing as you felt your hands get sweaty. you typed your response.
y/n❤️
go for it, arreaga.
you have 5 minutes
before i fall back asleep.
brandon🐝
thank you, y/n.
you rolled you eyes and watched as he proceeded to type out his side of the story. you didn't feel anything towards letting time pass the both of you. you honestly had no idea why you were even giving brandon a chance at reviving your relationship.
brandon🐝
i'm going to be completely honest
right now. after you caught charlotte
and i in my apartment, we dated for
months. we were "in love" or forced
ourselves to be. we didn't have
anything near the connection
you and i had, so i ended it. i know
i shouldn't have kissed her and
i beat myself up every day for
fucking up my relationship with
you. i love you, always have and
always will. i cannot express how
disgusting i felt for not only
bringing charlotte home with me,
but kissing her as well. i don't know
if i can fix what i've done to you but
please let us at least let go of our
grudges. i miss when we used to laugh
so hard we would cry or we'd do
everything together. i love you. im
sorry i ever made you feel unloved.
you couldn't say you weren't shocked at what brandon typed out. he was never one for heart to hearts so the thought of him crying why typing out this long paragraph made you feel 100x worse for letting him slip between your fingers so quickly. you never heard what he had to say and just cut all ties with him for what felt like forever. you pushed your hair back and sighed loudly, confused as to what to say to him.
y/n❤️
oh brandon, i'm sorry for never
listening to your side of the story
and just totally leaving you in the
dark for years. you hurt me so
badly that i wanted absolutely
nothing to do with you and it wasn't
the smartest solution but it was at the
moment. i still feel a small pang
of pain deep in my soul from finding my boyfriend and best friend kissing but
i do also feel a bigger pang of shame for
letting this drag out for as long as it honestly has. i can't say i don't love you but i can't
say i don't hate you. i want to meet up
and mend things instead of hiding behind
a screen and actually talk this out like
adults, brandon. all is not forgiven, yet.
brandon🐝
give me a time and place and
i'll be there for you, my love.
you felt your heart swell at the cute nickname he always called you while you guys were together.
y/n❤️
tomorrow at my place? if you're
not busy and all.
brandon🐝
i'll make time for you, i always do.
brandon smiled at his phone as you didn't respond, probably asleep. he loved when you fell asleep next to him on his couch while watching a movie you were excited about prior to that day. you always looked so beautiful to him. always.
brandon🐝
goodnight, my love. see you
tomorrow. i love you.
brandon turned off his phone and hummed, closing his eyes. he was nervous for the conversation that was headed but excited to see you once again. and with that, he fell asleep to the thought of you, like always.
