Why me?

12

Dallon's POV

I sat outside my room shaking as the doctors were with Ryan, the haunting memory of his still form plaguing my mind. I felt utterly numb until I felt a pair of gentle arms wrap around me, my mother's perfume filling my nose. I felt as if the reality of what had happened just crashed down on me and I burst into tears.

"Mom I'm scared. I don't wanna loose him..." I sobbed. She sighed and rubbed my back comfortingly. I pulled back to look at her, my vision blurry due to tears. "I know you are darling. But Ryan is a strong character and he'll pull through, I'm sure of it." she told me. I nodded and we both fell into silence until the doctor came out.

"Ryan is alive but only just. He lost a lot of blood which caused him to go into a coma. He should be alright but I'm not going to make any promises. You can go and see him now." he said before walking away. I shuffled into the room and almost broke down at the sight of him.

There was several machines and wires hooked up to him and a heart monitor beeping slowly. "Ryan..." I whispered as I sat down. "Why? I need you. More than you know. You've got to pull through this, you're gonna go on and do great things, I know it. Just don't leave me please."

My mother walked into the room as I was sat stroking his hair. "I don't think I could live without him." I whispered to her. She just patted my shoulder. "He'll be fine, I'm sure. But if it is truly his time and if you love him, you'll let him go." she said and as much as that thought pained me, she was right. I just nodded at her not trusting myself to speak. She stood up and left the room, giving one sympathetic look to Ryan. I began humming a tune and then the words came.

These are the eyes and the lies of the taken

These are their hearts but their hearts don't beat like ours

They burn 'cause they are all afraid

For every one of us, there's an army of them

But you'll never fight alone

'Cause I wanted you to know

That the world is ugly

But you're beautiful to me

Well are you thinking of me now (now)

These are the nights and the lights that we fade in

These are the words but the words aren't coming out

They burn 'cause they are hard to say

For every failing sun, there's a morning after

Though I'm empty when you go

I just wanted you to know

That the world is ugly

But you're beautiful to me

Are you thinking of me,

Like I'm thinking of you?

I would say I'm sorry, though

Though I really need to go

I just wanted you to know

I wanted you to know

I wanted you to know

I'm thinking of you every night, every day

These are the lies and the lives of the taken

These are their hearts but their hearts don't beat like ours

They burn 'cause they are all afraid

When mine beats twice as hard

'Cause the world is ugly

But you're beautiful to me

Are you thinking of me

Like I'm thinking of you

I would say I'm sorry, though

Though I really need to go

I just wanted you to know

That the world is ugly (I just wanted you to know)

But you're beautiful to me (I just wanted you to know)

Are you thinking of me

Stop your crying, helpless feeling

Dry your eyes and start believing

There's one thing they'll never take from you

(One day like this,

We'll never be the same

Never forever

Like ghosts in the snow

Like ghosts in the sun)

"I love you to death Ryan but you were wrong. You aren't a burden and I don't want anyone else. Out of all those boys, I chose you. No one else can replace you. And if you leave me I'm following right after you. I need you." I whispered as I looked out at the rising sun. I felt my eyelids getting heavy before I fell into a light slumber, haunted by the memories of the previous hours...