Sonadow One-Shots

Never

Sonic's POV

I made a wish... that I would be able to see you again, even If just once, I would be more than content. Just to touch your fur or to be touched by your fine hands, to smile like I always did, I'd look into your eyes and feel as if I was one whole being. I know that day is far from me now, but I have hope that it will occur. All I can do is hope really, it will fuel everything else and soon, I will have enough determination within me to reach you, where ever you may be.

Today I went out to the market, It wasn't a very difficult task to pick up groceries, but for some reason I felt fairly tired. My body must be growing weary without you. Even Amy, the grocer, commented on my lack of enthusiasm. I just smiled, what else could I have done? It's been just a month since you decided to enlist in the army behind my back, and already, I'm a wreck... I honestly could care less about my surroundings, and I know that if you were here, you would not be too happy about the condition of our home.

I abandoned the groceries on the counter and sluggishly made my way to the bed, I simply collapsed of exhaustion. To think such a short trip could have worn me out so fast, especially when a few months prior, I used to run around town on a daily basis, just to prove myself as your equal... That was before the incident and before you decided to leave me.

I don't exactly know why you were so scared, especially when I was so strong. I expected you to be prepared and ready for what lied ahead of us, but I guess I put too much weight on your shoulders, I should have known not to expect the world from you... I guess I was the reason you got up and left. The army must have been your escape route from the life I was forcing onto you...

I don't blame you for a thing... It really was my fault, I pushed you off the cliff and into something that you thought would take you away from reality. Whether or not your plan to evade responsibility will work, I am not sure... but I know that it will have a lasting scar on my heart. I love you Shadow, perhaps more than I can even fathom with mere words, It's so hard going on knowing that I may never see you alive again, I don't know how exactly to go on with out you.. will I ever get past your absence?

Of course I will, I have to if I ever want to see you again. I need to become strong enough to stand on my two own feet. I need to learn to become independent, only then will I ever have the power to reach you. I also have to take better care of myself, whether or not you are here, I still have a massive responsibility to under take, and just because you decided to waltz right up and leave me in my time of desperation, is no excuse for me to just drop everything as if it doesn't matter...

Because it does matter, this is the end result of what we had, all the memories and love we had, the relationship we had built up, only to be destroyed by itself... Even if it is the reason you left me, I will not simply lose it. This may be the only thing that ties us two together now... Our child.

This life I will be bringing into the world, may be the one thing that keeps me going while you are gone. However long that may be I am not quite sure... for all I know you may not even come back alive, but I must not let that affect me for too long, whether or not you come back to me is out of my hands, and now I must consider my own lively hood as well as our unborn child... Perhaps when things have cleared up between us, you will come back to me and we will be the happy family I had always dreamed of... or may be not, maybe that day will never come... but I can't lose hope, no matter what the out come, I will remain here, with open arms, awaiting your return.

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Shadow's P.O.V.