Eternally Yours ~ Ryan Sitkowski MIW

Cobwebs

!! TRIGGER WARNING!! : MENTIONS OF NEGLECT.

The gig at Slane Castle was redone the following week. Charlie could barely sleep, but her and everyone else pushed on to do the gig, and had a lot of fun.

Ricky's parents tried contacting Charlie when Hell Raisers and Motionless In White made it back to America. But Charlie ignored every card. Yes, they done a lot for her when she was growing up, but they favoured Ricky. It was clear that they did.

- They took his side when he first hurt her.
- They bailed him out of jail when he shouldn't have been bailed out at all.
- They lied to her about who she was.

That was only some of what they done throughout Charlie's life. There was so much more that she didn't even want to talk about.

Charlie's P.O.V

I

didn't end up going to court for stabbing Ricky. Lord Henry called the FBI headquarters (don't ask me how) and demanded I wasn't charged and nothing happened to me. I will forever be thankful for that man.

But that doesn't change the fact that I killed the man I once called brother.

Tegan is never going to know Ricky's parents, and I am going to ensure that until my dying days.. and she is never going to know about her so-called uncle.

A restraining order has been placed on them. (Ricky's parents.) They tried getting in contact with me numerous times, and even tried getting Ryan, Tegan and I to go to the funeral, just so they could see Tegan.

I have excepted the fact that I am not their child, and I've come to respect that. I'd rather not be their child. They always chose him over me.

Whatever Ricky done, he was always deemed better than me.

Nothing was every Ricky's fault.

My parents took his side when he first hit me. I know my Mom called the cops to try sort everything out, but that's besides the point.

I almost lost my baby girl because of him, and my parents still bailed him out of jail, and lied to me about who I really am.

Nothing was ever Ricky's fault. He would never do everything wrong.

If he beat someone up, I was apparently the one who drove him to it, and I was punished.

If he broke a vase, it was my fault he kicked the ball and hit it, because I didn't catch it.

Ryan's mom took me in when I was fifteen, just before Ryan and I started dating when I was sixteen. She was always like a mother to me, and continued to be that way whenever we would meet on the street when everything happened the first time with Ricky and when Ryan and I weren't together.

She would always greet me with a hug whenever I seen her and continues to do that as Tegan's grandmother.

My 'mother' was not as nice as she lead people to believe. I was hit, and cussed at as a child and left to look after myself when I was eleven years old and my 'parents' brought Ricky on a holiday to Spain.

My grandfather came to feed our pets, and found me hidden under the kitchen table. He made me pack my bags, and go back to his house and asked my grandmother to watch after me whilst he called my 'parents' and confronted them.

Both of my grandparents were furious.. and still are. Ricky's mother faked her pregnancy with me, by telling my grandparents she was pregnant with twins, when in reality, I was adopted a few weeks after Ricky was born.

They said I was having heart problems and I had to stay in the hospital for the few weeks they prepared to adopt me.

I still talk to my grandparents.. they are people I will never give up on. But I've given up on everyone else that I regarded as 'family' for the past twenty one years.

The only family I have now are Ryan, Tegan, my grandparents, the rest of Motionless In White, Hell Raisers and the MIW girls.. and I don't need anything more than that.

Ryan has been so patient with me, and trying to get over Ricky.. he has never once gotten frustrated or anything.. the only thing he is frustrated about is the amount of backlash Hell Raisers are getting because of everything, but that is out of his control.

A few good things have happened since that night, and I'm glad they have.

Noah defeated the cancer.. he had to get a lung transplant. He never met the donor, but he met the donor's family.. he asked myself, Jake (his boyfriend), Aspen and Jayden to go with him to meet the family, because he doesn't have any living relatives and everyone was in tears when they met.

He went straight to the parents of the donor, and the rest of us all broke down and shared hugs, condolences and thank you's. Their son.. their brother.. their husband, and father.. gave his life to spare Noah's and no one will ever be thankful enough for that. It was insane.

Tegan now sleeps in her own room. We have baby monitors, though, so it's actually not as bad as I thought it would be.

Over the past few weeks, I've been working on trying to sleep normally again. I'm getting there.. slowly but surely.

End Of P.O.V

On this particular day, Tegan was taking a nap, and Charlie and Ryan were going through some old things in the attic.

Charlie had made it to the back right corner of the attic. She found a box labelled "Horror Twins."

She gave a small smile, and took out her pocket knife, and opened it. Ricky had packed this box when Charlie and Ryan were moving in together. She had forgotten about it since. Inside were pictures of her and Ricky from elementary school and high school.

All dressed in black, wearing band shirts that had the logos of bands like Marilyn Manson, Ghost, Slipknot, Death and Cynic on them.

She smiled and she flicked through more photos.. photos of her, Ricky, Ryan, Angelo, Balz, Chris and Devin at a waterpark in Florida from five years ago. They were all laughing and smiling and it looked like a lot of fun.

She came across a jacket that matched one that Ricky had. A black and white varsity jacket with "570- Horror" across the back of it. Motionless In White were thinking of making jackets like that as band merch but decided against it. On the front of the jacket, was a skeleton key in a coffin.

It represented a skeleton key they were each given by their grandfather on their Dad's side on his death bed. They made them into necklaces by hanging them on chains and wearing them all the time.

Charlie reached down and lifted the necklace up from under her tshirt. She hadn't taken the necklace off in God knows how long.

She held it in her hand, tightly and took a deep breath.

Ryan giggled from across the room, as he found his first skateboard. He held it up. "Babe, look." He giggled. Charlie looked over towards him, and smiled as tears rolled down her cheeks, and she gripped the necklace tighter.

Ryan dropped the skateboard and went over to Charlie. He looked down into the box and around her, where the pictures and memories were.

He hugged her, tightly.

"I shouldn't have killed him.." She  whispered, and brushed away some cobwebs that were on the jacket she had found.

Ryan let her go as she put it on.

"I'm still an Olson.. I just need to know more.." She whispered.

"I need to know more."