Eternally Yours ~ Ryan Sitkowski MIW

Reincarnate

"I do wHAT?!!!" Charlie asked, hysterically. Ryan smiled. "I think that's a great idea!!!"

"I haven't sang solo on a proper recording since we covered Dial Tones by As It Is and I sang Ben Langford Biss' parts, Noah absolutely not, I'll call Lord Henry and say n-."

"You will say nothing of the sort to our lordship, Charolette." Noah said. Charlie looked at him. "I can't sing for shit!" She said.

"Yes you can! You're the best singer I know! You're better than Marilyn Manson, James Hetfield, Dave Mustaine, Jerry Only, Patty Walters, Corey Taylor, Andy Biersack, Chris Motionless, Ash Costello, Steve Perry, Kurt Cobain, Chuck Schuldiner, Jon Bon Jovi, Richie Sambora, Dave Ghrol, Pelle Ohlin and Stevie Nick's combined!" Aspen said.

Charlie's jaw dropped. "How dare you have the audacity to-."

"Give all of those the absolute honor of sharing the same title as the Charlie Horror? I know." Aspen cut Charlie off as soon as he could.

Charlie lay back in her hospital bed, and sighed.

Everyone sat in silence for a few minutes and Charlie finally sighed a deep sigh.

"I'll do it." She said quietly. Noah, Aspen and Jayden turned to each other and gave each other a high five.

Noah yawned. "We best be going, Charles. It's 3:30 and you're still not asleep. Good night." Jayden said.

Charlies three band mates stood up and shared a hug with both her and Ryan and then said their goodbyes and left. Charlie sighed when the hospital room door was shut.

"Are you okay?" Ryan asked, running his hand through Charlies bright red hair. Charlie nodded. "I'm just really tired." She said. "Is Tegan okay??"

Ryan looked over at Tegan in her cot, and smiled. "Yeah, she's okay. Get some sleep babe. I'll be here if you need me." Ryan said and kissed Charlies forehead, sitting on the rocking chair by the bed. Charlie fell asleep within a few minutes and Ryan was not too far behind her on that one.

Ricky's P.O.V

What have I done?

I've hurt my little sister, again. Well.. we're the same age but I'm a few minutes older, okay. I've done it again. We were only teenagers when it happened the first time but I'm an idiot and got drunk and hit my little sister. Now I can't even see my niece.

Mom showed me a picture of her, apparently her name is Tegan. She's adorable.

I miss Jaime. Why did I have to be a dick to her and Chris that night in the cop station? Oh, wait, because I'm Ricky Olson. I'm an alcoholic and a dick to EVERYONE. An unintentional dick, that is, but I'm sure most people would disagree with me. I wonder who's filling my place on the current tour that Motionless In White are on. It's probably TJ or Thrasher from Escape The Fate.

Although I still fear being here, in jail, I fear most what comes afterwards, if I make it out of here alive.

Will I be kicked out of Motionless In White?
Will my own family disown me?
Will Jaime take me back?
Where will I go?
Would Charlie be willing to talk to me?
Are the boys in MIW (and Kuza for that matter) gonna kill me for hurting Charlie again?

I thought my last fuck up was bad, but this one is worse. I nearly killed my niece and sister and didn't give a fuck. The cops confiscated Jaimes promise ring that I gave her almost two Christmas's ago. The same ring she threw at me that night.

I didn't have a cell-mate. I was alone, and slowly going insane. I couldn't play, write or listen to music. I had the same four riffs from previous albums from both Motionless In White and Kuza that I worked on for months stuck in my head and the fact that I wasn't allowed a guitar to play them and what not was driving me up the walls.

I thought back to the few times Charlie would play guitar onstage with Ryan and I during MIW headliner shows and thought about how fun they were. The synced head banging, riffs and chords played perfectly in time with each other, backing vocals, you name it, we had it.

I miss talking to fans too.

Thats when my eyes watered up. I had lost so much in the space of a few months.

My career
My brothers
My sister
My niece
My home
The girl I loved
My fans
My work and profession.

Before I knew it, I was crying hysterically in the corner of my cell, rolled up in a ball. All I wanted to do was die and reincarnate.

End Of P.O.V

Charlie, Ryan and Tegan all managed to sleep until ten am. Charlie was the first one to wake up. A nurse came in at ten to check Charlie's blood pressure.

"How was your first night with your baby??" The nurse asked with a small smile. Charlie giggled. "She slept the whole night. I'm gonna wake her up soon and give her a bottle." She said.

The nurse smiled. "Ah, you were lucky, unlike some, whose babies cry all through the night. How did he take it?" She asked, nodding at Ryan.

Charlie couldn't stop smiling. "I don't think the man has cried as much in his life." She said and the nurse laughed. "Once again, lucky. When I had my first kid, my lad went to the bar halfway through the birth." She sighed.

Charlie's jaw dropped. "Please tell me you threw a baby bottle at his head."

The nurse let out a laugh. "I nearly strangled him with a baby grow."

Charlie laughed. "Adda girl." She said and the nurse laughed. "I'll be back to check on you soon, okay??" She said and headed for the door. "Yes chief." Charlie said, jokingly.

About ten minutes later, Ryan woke up. He ran his hands through his long hair and looked around. When he seen Charlie, he smiled widely. "Hey, darling." He said. Charlie looked up and smiled widely. "Hey.." she said. Ryan stood up, stretched and looked over at Tegan.

Tegan was just opening her icy blue eyes.

Ryan walked over to her, and took her out of her cot, sitting beside Charlie on the hospital bed. He sat Tegan up to face Charlie. "Say hi to Mommy."

Pretty obviously, Tegan didn't make a peep.

"... it's rude to ignore your mother Tegan." He said with a huff, causing Charlie to laugh.

Ryan took up a ready made bottle off of  the locker beside Charlie's bed and began feeding it to Tegan.

Ryan lay back on the bed beside Charlie and rested his head on her shoulder as he fed Tegan the bottle.

Charlie kissed Ryan's forehead.

Ryan smiled and Charlie watched as her boyfriend fed their baby girl.