This Is Who I Am

Chapter Thirty

Edward's P.O.V

At the age of five, I fell off my bike when my dad was trying to teach me how to ride without training wheels. I scrapped my hands and knees, and I set next to the fallen bike crying until my father came running toward me and calmed me down in the only way he knew how.

At the age of ten, Alice plays dress up with me and dresses me up in girl's clothing and applies makeup on me. She also takes pictures and shares them on her social media, where after mom took them down and grounded Alice for the rest of her life - aka three days.

At the age of fifteen, my parents start their divorcing process after dad finds out mom cheated once again. Mom tries to convince me to stay with her when dad lets her know about his plans of moving back to Chicago and taking me with him. Alice was already in college and met her boyfriend, Jasper, so the move didn't make much of an impact to her.

It also happened to be the age where I met Bella, where I saw her sitting alone across the cafeteria and when up to her and invited her a cup of coffee. That's where our story started...

I can go over each major event in my life up to the accident without a problem. Proudly, even. I go over them over and over again as I drive to my doctors appointment with Dr. Evans for the results of my MRIs, CT scans and all the others analysis they did on me.

"Edward Cullen." A nurse walks out and looks at me. She smiles and says, "Dr. Evans is ready to see you."

I follow the nurse down the now familiar halls to Dr. Evans office. Once there, she let's me in and tells me Dr. Evans will be with me shortly before shutting the door behind her. I take a seat on the chair next to the examining bed and lean back, taking in the office I used to come in every once in a while for certain assignments. Dr. Evans is there in less than a minute.

"Good afternoon, Edward. How are you doing today?"

"Great, actually. Did you find anything in my exams?" I ask, eagerly waiting for the results. I'm not gonna lie and say I haven't been wondering about the results. Stuff like this doesn't happen on a daily, suddenly recovering my memory? Yeah, only in movie. Though, I am glad for the gift, I finally feel like I have that part of myself I have been missing.

All this time, I've felt incomplete. Even after I found Bella and Ava, there was still something there that felt missing. Nothing to do with them, more with myself. Like I wasn't fully myself. I hated the fact that I couldn't remember my daughter, I hated the fact that Bella held memories of us together that she held on to, that I couldn't recall at all. Now? I remember perfectly the anxiousness I felt the day I approached Bella in the cafeteria. The excitement the day she told me she was pregnant and the love I felt stir inside me the moment the doctor placed Ava in my arms. All the moments no one will ever tear away from me ever again.

Dr. Evans turns his computer screen toward me and I'm shocked to see Dr. Benson pop on the screen.

"Edward, hi!" He greeted.

"Dr. Benson... Wow, I wasn't expecting a video call-"

"I know Dr. Benson has been treating you for the past three years, so I faxed him copies of your scans and analysis results to get his insight. No one is more familiar with what goes on inside that head of yours than him," Dr. Evans said, motioning to the screen.

Dr. Benson nods. "Yes, and we're pretty shocked about what we found."

Dr. Evans stands up and turns on one of the light screens. Shock runs through my body like electric waves. I've seen enough brain scans in my life to know what a healthy brain looks like, and what I was looking at was everything but. I drift my eyes from Dr. Benson to Dr. Evans, waiting for either of them to confirm what I'm seeing.