Number Nineteen (Mario Götze/Goetze/Gotze)

Chapter Fourteen

    This was a bad idea. A very, very bad idea.

    Going to the beach with Lio? Fun.

    Going to the beach with Lio and Fabian? Great.

     Going to the beach with Mario? Um, okay. No.

    What if Lio caught me drooling over Mario's body? I mean, the way his skin is so perfectly tan, even underneath his shirt, and how he has a little bit of chest hair that makes him look like a man, and those abs, oh, those ab-

   Sorry. Off topic.

     In case you haven't guessed, I'm currently in the car, riding shotgun next to Mario. Fabian and Lio are in the back and they keep laughing, which is very annoynig since I'm trying to listen to music.

     "I can't help, falling in love with you" my Ipod played. I immediately thought of Mario- I mean, Lio. I love Lio. I only like Mario. Right?

    Stupid blonde, make up your mind already.

     I hit skip on my Ipod and "Ghost" came on. Much better. I hummed along, trying to ignore the awkwardness of the car ride. Mario's been acting weird ever since he found out about the baby. He insisted on joining me for a few check ups, and has not-so-subtly suggested baby names.

So far, none of them have hit the target, but they're still better than Lio the Second. The dinner was two weeks ago, but still fresh in my mind.

     "We're here", Mario announced as he pulled into the parking lot of a beach. I smiled to myself. Finally I could relax.

     We got out of the car, and carried our things to the beach. We picked a nice spot in the sun, a little bit away from the other people here. I pulled of my white fishnet dress, revealing my dark blue bikini, with silver clasps. I have honestly become a little more insecure about my body, since my belly has been getting larger and larger.

    "You look beautiful", Lio assured me. I nodded, laying out my red beach towel. I looked around, taking in my surroundings. An old couple reading, a young couple making out passionately, a guy walking past the young couple, mumbling "get a room", a few people in the water, kids making sand castles- and Lio running to the bathroom stalls.

    "Lio!" I cried.

    "I NEED TO PEE!" He called, not even looking back.

    "ME TOO!" Fabian cried, following suit.

     "BUT YOU NEED TO SUNBLOCK ME!" I whimpered. Lio still didn't stop running.

    "MARIO'LL DO IT!"

     Wait, what? I should ask Mario to like, touch my body?

What's the big deal, he's done it before?

Yeah, but I was drunk. And in private. This is different.

Suck it up, blondie.

    I glanced over at Mario, who was looking at me expectantly. I scratched my neck awkwardly, trying to figure out what to say.
"Er.. Should I?" He offered. Aww, it's so cute when he's nervous.
"Uh, yeah, thanks." I said, handing him the sun block. I pulled my hair into a high ponytail, to make things easier.  He squeezed a bit in his hand and began rubbing it on my back. His touch sent shivers down my spine, and I prayed he had not noticed.
"You alright?" He asked. Crap.
"Yeah its just... Cold." It was true though. The sunscreen was cold against my skin, but it felt good.
I closed my eyes and let Mario massage the cool liquidy substance onto my back. I was almost disappointed when he pulled his arms away, clarifying that he was done. I was too lazy too move so I lye there on the towel. I heard Mario sigh, and he sat down next to me.
"it can't go on like this." he finally said.

"On like what?" I muttered into the beach towel.

"like.. I dont know, awkwardly! I want to be friends Lena. Please. Can't things just go back to the way they were before?" he asked. I sat up on the towel and faced Mario.

"Look, Mario, As much as I'd like that to happen, it won't. We can't pretend that we did not sleep together, that we have kissed a couple times, hell we can not pretend that I am not pregnant with your baby, and lying about it to my family, my friends, and most of all, my boyfriend! Yeah, I wish I could take it all back, that I could wave a wand and everything will go back to the way it was. But I can't. We're just going to have to suck it up, and deal with it."

 Mario was quiet for a moment.

"Do you regret it?" he broke the silence.

"Regret what?"., he sighed.

"That night. Do you regret it?"

I took a deep breath and answered as honestly as I could.

"Yeah. I do.", it killed me to see the pained expression on Mario's face, "Not for the reasons you think. If it had happened while I wasn't in a realationship, then maybe not. But I cheated. So of course, I regret cheating. I don't regret spending time with you and being your friend. It's the part about being unfaithful that I regret."

Damn, I'm on fire with these heartfelt honest-to-god speeches. I saw Mario sigh and look away. I couldn't quite read the expression on his face, but the look that he wore... his mind was far away. He was staring at the ocean, his eyes filled with depth, and all I could think about was how freaking perfect he looked at that moment.

So I did what anybody would do...

I pulled out my cell phone and took a picture.

As soon as the shutter went off, Mario snapped his head towards me, raising his eye brows in confusion.

"What the hell?"

I blushed. "here", I showed him the picture. "You look hot."

Hold up. Did I just tell Mario he looked hot? What in the name of the lawd of peanut butter is wrong with me?

And then there's the fact that I just said the lawd of peanut butter.

I need help.

It looked like Mario was about to say something, but Lio and Felix came running in front of us, all giggly. Did I mention that they were each covered in ice cream from head to toe, and it dripped off the sizes of their bodies, and some parts even sizzled? I could just swirl my tongue over Lio and lick it... sorry. That was weird.

"What happened here?" Fabian asked. I laughed.

"You're asking us? Why are you covered in ice cream?" Felix shrugged.

"Why not?"

I shrugged too, and Lio grabbed my arm pulling me up onto my feet.

"Let's go swimming Lena!" I nodded, and we all ran off into the clear blue water.

    Two hours later, I had decided to tan and Mario joined me. We both lie on beach towels, with our eyes closed inhaling the sunshine. It was so calm and peaceful, the only sound being the crashing of wav-"

"Help! Help!" I shot up and looked to where the sounds were coming from. Crap. I know that face. it was Fabian. A drowning Fabian. I wanted to jump up and run, or get Mario, but he was sleeping and I was frozen. I saw Lio swim out to him, and all I could think about was the mighty waves swallowing the both of them.

And then. Well, then I fainted.

Authors Note

I feel so terrible. It's been around a MONTH since my last update. A month! Ugh, I'm so sorry. I've been so distracted recently with soccer and school and ugh. I want Summer back.

I'll TRY to update weekly from here on out... no promises though.

Love you all! SORRRRYYY

Anna-Katharina