Love Aaron

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Dear Annalise,

It's graduation day.

It's also been almost 2 years without you.

I can almost say I'm excited to graduate.

Start a new chapter in my life.

It almost feels good.

Almost.

I'm going to move back with my mom and dad before I live on my own. Find a job first wherever in the world.

I actually have high hopes after graduation.

It's weird though.

I kind of feel relieved that you're gone.

I hate saying that but you were a burden but also a blessing.

I loved you and loved spending time with you but you always, always had something negative to say.

You never did anything to change it. Nothing.

You always said it's too hard.

It was only hard because you never changed your mind set.

God, I feel like I'm fighting with you all over again, I don't see the point.

This is a letter so you won't see it anyways.

I hate myself for saying any of that but I need to let you go somehow and if I have to say horrible things I will.

If that is what I need to move on, then so be it.

I need change.

I need to be free from the hold you have on me.

Please understand. I love you and always will love you.

A person never really stops loving someone. They simply just accept that they're gone and not coming back.

I wish you were here.

Love,
Aaron.