Love Aaron

Eight

Dear Annalise,

It's been a few days since I've seen Leah.

She hasn't been to the park lately and it makes me sad.

She was interesting.

I feel lonely most of the time and my parents said I should see someone.

Maybe I should.

Maybe I should be on medication.

But that scares me.

I don't want to get addicted like you did.

I don't want to be labeled as depressed.

It all scares me.

It makes me feel even more sad.

What's wrong with me?

Why am I like this?

I feel like you'll forever have this hold on me and it won't ever go away.

I feel like I will always feel lonely no matter who I have or who comes into my life.

Work has been good. I make a good amount of money which makes me happier.

But it isn't enough.

Daisy isn't enough to make me fully happy.

I want to buy a house but I have no reason to. One bedroom is basically pointless. Two is too much.

I want a family.

But I want it with you.

I feel bad for wanting something without you.

I have to move on though.

I have to move on so I can have the family I want. Even if it isn't with you.

I wish you were here.

Love,
Aaron