I run to the bathroom and lock the door and everything I look through all the cabinets until I found...the perfect thing to use I rolled up my sleeves as I thought of everyone I hurt "I hurt Joonie, I hurt my mom, I hurt myself, I hurt Allie, I hurt Yoongi, I hurt my cousin, I hurt Cloe" one cut for everyone I hurt the scent of blood burned my nose the cuts didn't hurt as bad as the smell of blood burning me it made my eyes water and my tears fell from my eyes and landed on the cuts and it burns my skin mixing with the blood the dark place I was once in, it came back I unlocked door and pulled down my sleeves. And went to sit on the bed smelling the hoodie I was wearing it smelled like Joonie I missed the nights when we would just lay here talking...
_FLASHBACK_
"hey, Joonie do you ever get a feeling that sometimes you just want to run away from all of this and all these people and never even think about coming back here?" I ask curiously "yeah sometimes I do, why?" He asks confused "I want to leave all of this just you and me...it will always be you and me together...I will never leave you or let you leave and if anyone kills you I would kill myself" I said seriously "oh so we would be Romeo and Juliet?" He asks chuckling a bit "exactly but we should go to sleep good night Joonie bear" I said laying my head on his chest and falling asleep.
_END OF FLASHBACK_
"I told him that I would never leave him and that I would never let him leave me...but I guess I let him leave anyway...I am so stupid...I am a terrible girlfriend" I say to myself before grabbing my phone and texting Joonie
Me: Joonie I am sorry...I told you that I wouldn't let you leave and I did anyways I am such a terrible girlfriend I made a mistake please forgive me
Joonie: babe, I shouldn't have left you either I wanted to turn around and hug you tightly in my arms but I thought you might just push me away so I just kept walking I love you and I am sorry I do forgive you but maybe it is best if we stay away from each other for a while.
Me: O-okay...
I put my phone on the spot beside me and slowly drifted off into a deep sleep. The next morning was just me missing Joonie he texted me a few times a day but it was not a lot I started to make myself bleed more thinking about all the mistakes I have made in life and all the things I do to hurt people including myself I take a deep breath in the out "I miss you Joonie I hope you miss me too" I say to myself as I pick up Cloe and go to my room again I lift up my sleeves to see all the cuts on them they all coved my arms then my bedroom door opens and I jump back a bit only too see Joonie looking at my worriedly "J-J-Joonie w-what a-are y-you doing here and how did you get in" I say quickly pulling down my sleeves he walks over to me grabbing my hand and pulling up my sleeves "why would you do this to yourself?" he asks kinda angrily "There are cuts for everything I did wrong and for everyone I hurt including you Joonie" I say pulling my hand away and rolling the sleeves back down the laying on my bed I then feel him put his arms around me "I missed you and I missed being able to cuddle" he said i just hide my face with my hands.
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Dangerous Love (RM fanfic)
Fiksi PenggemarYou were walking back from my friend's house with the feeling of being followed but when you turn around you see no one then you feel someone cover your mouth and take you to an ally. "Your Y/n Y/l/n right?" the man says as he uncovers your mouth "Y...
