Hood Love

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"Who were you talking to Onika?" I asked again.

"Its not important." She shrugged. Her saying it's not important makes me think its very important.

"It sounded important. So again I ask Who. Were. You. Talking. To?" I'm not letting her off the hook. We exchanged looks in silence until she spoke.

"Come sit down." She sighed patting the empty space on the bed beside her. I slowly made my over to the bed. Never taking my eyes off her.

"So I wasn't 100% honest with you when I told you about my past." She confessed. I can't believe her. After all we've been through. I mugged her ready to get up and leave until she placed her hand on my thigh, forcing me to sit back down.

"Don't look at me like that. I'm not use to opening up to people and shit. No matter how close we are. But you've shown me today that you would ride or die for me and for that I owe you my life. So the truth is I did came to America from Trinidad because I was getting in trouble. My mom made me move in with my aunt and uncle because she thought they were more strict. But I still couldn't stay out of trouble. In fact I got in more trouble. I would do shit on purpose because i had so many thoughts, questions, and emotions that I didn't know how to express. The streets was my outlet. In the streets I met mckayla, Ox, Wayne all them niggas I hang out with now. Now this dude Ox had the biggest crush on me but I wasn't interested until he got a girlfriend. Remy. I hated her. Her dad was a huge drug dealer and killed my uncle during a bust. From that day on I knew I had to kill her. Anyone, One day I was talking to Ox in the hall way, it was nothing serious but try telling that to Remy. She said the only way I would get Ox is by fighting her. So that's what I did. I can't believe I fought a girl over some boy because he would have picked me anyway. So I beat her ass and stole her man. From then on we were even bigger rivals. Eventually Ox and I started dating on and off and then he get me pregnant when I was 16. A baby girl named Alexis. She was 7 lbs 3 oz. Light brown curly hair with big green eyes and one little dimple.She was the center of my universe. I wasn't happy about my situation but the day I laid eyes on her I fell in love. Back to the story. Keep in mind Ox and I was always on and off. I would run to Mckayla when we were off and thats how we got close. One day I was in the car with Alexis after leaving Mckaylas house and Remy had her crew shoot at us. I was never so scared in my life. I decided to leave Alexis with Ox for protection. I didnt tell him why because I didnt want anymore problems with Remy. I knew keeping her with me wasnt safe. I regret that decision everyday. She's been through hell because of me. I failed her." Nika explained holding back tears

"Don't say that. You were just a kid yourself. You did what you thought was best to protect her. Where is she now? Do you know?" I had so many questions but I didn't want to overwhelm her.

"So a while ago I found out that she worked at the strip club and I had to get my baby out of there. It broke my heart to see her around all those sleezy guys. The night I killed Remy I sent her to live with her grandma in Cuba." She explained.

"Does she know that you're her mom?" I questioned.

"No. I plan on going down there and telling her the truth but then what? What if she hates me?" Nicki brought her knees to her chest and rested her head on her knees.

"Just be honest with her. I can't guarantee you she won't be mad but at least she'll know the truth." I lifted her head so that she was looking at me. I want Nicki to know that whenever she's down I'll be there to pick her up.

"You're right and thank you for not judging me. Thank you for everything you've done for me." She gave me a bright smile and leaned in to place a gentle kiss on my forehead. I gently caressed her face staring into her beautiful grey eyes. Slowly our faces came closer together until our lips were pressed together. Forcefully she pushed me back against the mattress ready to take control but I had other plans. Wrapping my legs around her waist I flipped us over and pinned her to the bed.