Change Me

Chapter 11: Drool-worthy Abs

[ Cody's POV ]

Walang araw na 'di ko sinisi ang sarili ko sa pagkawala ni CJ.

My little princess.

I don't want this case to be closed. I don't even want to hear anyone say CJ's already dead kase nararamdaman kong buhay pa sya. Stupid investigators can't do their job right. Hanggang ngayon wala pa silang lead. Justin fucking McCann was making it hard for us. That asswipe was a major pain in the ass.

May posibilidad na may mga kasamahan si McCann. Baka nga nasa paligid lang sila, covering his ass up. Impossibleng ganito kalinis ang trabaho nya na sya lang mag-isa ang gumagawa. Marami silang sources. 'Pag nalaman ko kung sino-sino ang mga yan, I swear to God ...

I was trying to find out their possible sources. Pero, fucking hell, wala akong makita. I ended up finding something about his past. I believe this could somehow help me. Ito nalang ang pinanghahawakan ko ngayon. I figured out finding something in his past would lead me to his current life. I had to change strategy. Walang kahit anong mahanap na impormasyon tungkol sa kanya ngayon, why not unfold his past, right?

So I found out that McCann once had a wife. They've been married for almost a year bago sila nagka-anak. Some of the interviewed witnesses spilled out that their marriage was only fixed and they did not really love each other, as articulated. The record wasn't clear though. It says here that their only child, Jason McCann, went missing and Justin McCann put the blame on his own wife. That's when horrible things happend. Nagsimulang magloko itong si McCann. Assaulting, threatening, ang killing women. It's bizarre kase wala sa record na may ginahasa sya, sexual harassment, or whatever. After a month or two, bigla syang naglaho. The killings stopped. Pero makalipas ang ilang taon, he came back in the picture and killed Melly Crane, his last victim before taking my sister away from me.

Looks like this was the bastard's reason behind all these killings. Some sort of revenge. But damn this son of a bitch, bakit kailangang damayin nya pa si CJ? She was such a nice person with a kind heart.

My eyes started to water and I haven't noticed that I'm actually fisting the papers I'm reading. Naramdaman kong may kamay na humawak sa may likod ko. "Cody, love." mom started patting my back. I furiously blinked the tears away. I don't want to look like a pussy in front of my mom. "You have to sleep, honey." patuloy nito. "Ilang araw ka nang ganito. Wala ka nang time sa sarili mo. You have to slow down a bit-"

I looked at her in disbelief, my eyebrows pulled together. Gumawa sya ng konting distansya sa pagitan naming dalawa. "What do you expect me to do, mom? Sit back, relax and act like everything is under control when my sister was fucking kidnapped?" I laughed sarcastically.

I never swore to my mom. Pero ngayon, 'di ko napigilan. Bakit sya nangingialam? I'm doing everything here to get her daughter back and she's pushing aim around. What the hell.

"Cody, i-it's not like that," she pleaded "It's just ... look at you-"

"Yeah, I look like shit so what?" I said angrily. Why was she making this hard for me?

Tumayo ako galing sa upuan at tumalikod kay mom. Ewan ko pero wala ako sa mood para makisalamuha sa kahit na sino, kahit mom pa kita. Naglakad ako papalayo.

"Don't blame yourself, Cody" mom said. I heard tears in her voice only confirming that she was crying when I turned my head back to her.

My heart broke at the sight of her.

Look what you've done. You're such an ass Cody, you made mom cry.

Mom was only trying to help me cope. I've been feeling shit for weeks at totoong wala na akong oras sa kanila pati sa sarili ko.