Cry. Cry so hard you can hardly breathe, your lungs struggling to keep up. Cry so hard the tears blur your vision, until you can't see anything and your eyes eventually just shut. Cry like its what they're made for. Cry until your face crumples into a broken mess, until pretty turns to ugly and ugly turns into uglier. Cry so hard you can't contain your sobs and let them flow out of you in streams, in rivers. Cry until they turn into full-blown screams. Cry until you're dizzy, until you feel like you're going to pass out. Cry until you fall on the floor. Cry because you're afraid of everything you've become and everything that's about to be. Cry until the tears wash away all your pain and grief. Cry until all that's left is indifference.
Cry and call out to God. Tell Him he was right, that you're nothing without Him. And then thank Him for being faithful even when you are not. Cry because a love could be so perfect, it's hard for you to fathom.
Let that be your reason to smile again. Let that fill you up and become your strength, knowing that God hasn't given up. So why should you?
