Torn (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 20

Niall's P.O.V

I knocked on the bathroom door, and I waited for Sarah to get out. I saw the door knob turning, and I saw Sarah. Her eyes were red from crying. Her hair was in a wet messy bun. She was wearing a big t-shirt, and sweat shorts. 

She tried to push passed me, but I grabbed her wrist before she could leave. I picked her up, and she tried to break free from my grasp but she gave up.

I carried her into my room, and locked the door. I placed her on the bed, and I laid down beside her. Her face was pressed against my chest, and she was still sobbing. I held her tighter.

"I-I hate you,"she cried.

"I know,"I said quietly.

"I-I n-n-never want to see you a-again,"she stuttered.

"I know."

"Y-you hurt me so damn mu-much,"she cried even harder.

"I know."

"You ruined my r-re-relationship with Z-Zayn."

"I know."

"You just know everything,"she pushed my grasp away and got up.

She walked to the door, and unlocked it.

"I sh-should h-hate you, right?"She asked.

"You have every right to,"I said.

"I-I don-don't think I can,"she said.

Her brown eyes were on me.

"I wan-want to hate you with all my heart. I want to hate you so much, bu-but there's so-something telling me that I shouldn't. R-Read page 42 in my diary, I'm pretty sure that whole entry is a l-lie now,"she said and she tried to wipe away the tears from her face. She looked at me one last time, and she walked away.

I screwed up everything. I sat on my bed, and started running my fingers through my hair. She's right... What she said hurt me by just saying that she wanted to hate me. I can't even imagine us going back to the friendship we had.

I grabbed her diary, and turned to page 42. It read:

Dear Diary,

I think I've finally fit in somewhere. And it's with my boys <3 They make me feel like everything is going to be alright. I never really felt loved, but when I'm around them I do. It's such a weird feeling. With Zayn I can reminice on our childhood memories. With Harry I can have the slightest care in the world. With Liam I can just talk about my feelings. With Lou I can act like a child again. And with Niall I can feel safe...

Feeling safe is probably one of my favorites. The way Niall could just put his arms, and I automatically felt safer. Maybe because he'd pull me close beside him, and would refuse to let any fans try to get me. I hope I can get closer to Niall. He's probably the sweetest out of the boys. Like he'd never hurt me.

Ah well I'm tired so, good night Diary!

Love, Sarah

I closed her diary, and I began to cry. I hurt her so bad, and I could never take back anything that had happened.

Sarah's P.O.V

I walked out our suite, and banged on Liam, Louis, and Harry's suite.

Liam opened the door, and I hugged him. I was still in tears from the argument and from Niall. Liam hugged me back, and he walked with me to their couch. I sat down beside him, and I just cried onto his shoulder until I fell asleep.

I felt someone pick me up, and carry me. I opened my eyes to see who it was, and it was Harry. He put me on the bed he sleeps on, and laid there beside me.

"Harry, I'm a screw up,"I whispered.

"We're all screw ups,"he whispered.

"I can't sleep,"I mumbled five minutes later.

"Here I'll help you,"he whispered.

He put his arms around me, and his head rested on top of mine.

"Isn't she lovely

Isn't she wonderful

Isn't she precious

Less than one minute old

I never thought through love we'd be

Making one as lovely as she

But isn't she lovely made from love,"Harry sang softly.

"Isn't she pretty

Truly the angel's best

Boy, I'm so happy

We have been heaven blessed

I can't believe what God has done

Through us he's given life to one

But isn't she lovely made from love

Isn't she lovely,"he finished singing.

I turned over, and faced him.

"Thank you,"I whispered. I felt tears beginning to form again.

"Don't cry,"he whispered, and he brushed off one of the tears off of my cheek.

"Do you think I'm a terrible person,"I asked.

I looked into his green eyes, and he gave me a small smile.

"I think you're lovely."