Torn (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 25

Sarah's P.O.V

The ride back to the hotel was really awkward we just rode home with absolute silence. I took a glance at Niall, and his eyes were a little red. I couldn't tell if he was angry or sad.

"Niall,"I said faintly.

"Yeah."

"I'm really sorry,"I looked at him this time, and he stole a glance at me.

"It's fine, babe. I just wish I stole your heart before he did,"he said quitely, but loud enough for me to hear.

"I really do like you Niall. If it wasn't for the situation I'm in I would've chose you before anyone else. You're sweet, funny, amazingly cute, and I can eat anything around you without being judged. You just know how to make a girl feel better about herself. If it wasn't for that fight-"

"So that fight is what fucked us up?"He asked. His hands gripping the steering wheel so tight that his knuckles were turning white.

I thought about it for a second. I wasn't lying to Niall at all. I really thought we could be something. I did lie to him about the fact about liking Harry more than just being friends. I mean at one point I saw Niall and I together, but at another I did see Harry being a possiblity. But Harry was Micaela's big brother. Niall deserved so much better than me. But then there's Louis how could just make my stomach do back flips. Who could just touch my shoulder and I would instantly start blushing. Louis was always there for me, but it hurts that he has to keep me a secret.

"Sarah?"

I broke out of my train of thoughts, and I looked at Niall once again.

"Yeah that fight really did screw us over,"I said.

"If I could turn back time I would. I regret that day more than anything. You don't know how much I beat myself up every night ever since that one day. I think about how much closer we could've been. How I could be the one cuddling you at night,"he paused for a second."You know Zayn was told me this,'Niall, I know that you're going to get attached to my sister. Just try not to fall too hard because she has a tendency of breaking boys hearts.' He told me that the first day I laid eyes on you. I honestly didn't know what he meant up until now."

"I-I broke your heart,"I stuttered now looking down at my hands.

"Yeah, but it's my fault."

"How?"I asked still looking down.

"Because I've fallen way too hard, and now I don't know if I can get up off the ground."

I looked at Niall I can feel the tears beginning to form in my eyes. I don't know why Niall had a tendency to make me cry when he speaks. Maybe it's because I could actually feel the pain in his voice.

"I don't get why you've fallen so hard for me. I'm nothing special,"I whispered.

I felt the car come to a stop, and I looked out the window. We were already in the hotel's parking lot.

"Sarah, look at me when I'm talking to you, please?"Niall said.

I looked at him. His blue eyes right on mine.

"Sarah, you're sweet, you're beautiful, you don't judge anyone, you're funny, and so much more. And it kills me hearing you talk badly about yourself. You immediatley make anyone's day a hundred precent better. You don't know how beautiful you are and how much you mean to people. You're fucking special, and perfect,"Niall said his eyes never leaving mine.

I began crying. Niall's hand reached my face as he brushed away a tear.

"You're too pretty to cry, babe,"he whispered.