Torn (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 26

Zayn's P.O.V

I held my sister tight, she was still crying in my arms. Once she stopped I lifted her up, and sat her down on the bed Liam sleeps on while our stay at this hotel.

I paced around the room, I could feel her eyes watching me, I didn't know what I was going to say.

"Sarah,"I began,"why would you ever want to do that to yourself?"

"Because I didn't think anyone would miss me,"she said.

"What about Mom, Dad, Grandma, Grandpa,"I paused for a second,"what about me?"

She looked at me for a second, and thought about it.

"I wasn't thinking straight,"she confessed."I just wanted to be away from all this. Just to let the pain go away."

"Why didn't you tell me about Louis,"I asked. This time I sat down beside her, and grabbed her hand.

"Because I knew you would hate the fact that I was seeing him, but you don't have to worry about that anymore. He was just using me,"I could see the tears beginning to form in her eyes again. Louis was a fucking asshole to say that to her.

"I want to kill him,"I mummered.

"Don't hurt him, Zayn. Just let him live with the guilt,"she said quietly."He's not worth getting into a fight over."

"You're right,"I sighed,"but he had no right calling you a slut or a whore."

"Maybe I am."

I stared at her in disbelief.

"I mean I kissed Louis, I flirted with Harry, I led Niall on and then kissed him,"she said.

"You are far from any of those words he said. Sarah everyone flirts, and you didn't kiss Niall he kissed you. There's a big difference!"I exclaimed.

She just kept her mouth shut knowing that I have won the argument.

"Sarah, promise me you won't do this ever again?"I asked.

I held out my pinky, and she put her's on mine.

"Promise,"she gave me a weak smile.

But hey a smile is a smile.

"Zayn,"she said.

"Yeah?"

"Can I have some time alone, please?"

I gave her an unassured look.

"I promise I'm not going to do anything stupid, I just need to think."

I nodded my head, and made my way to the door.

"Sarah?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you."

She gave me a full on smile this time.

"I love you too."

And with that said I left her to her thoughts.

Sarah's P.O.V

I was left alone for about five minutes, and Liam came walking in.

He looked around the room, and started picking up the pills I had spilt.

"Here let me,"I said and I jumped off the bed.

I saw Liam's hand tense up as I picked up one of them.

"Don't worry, I already promised Zayn,"I said reassuring him.

"Sorry, still a bit freaked out,"he said.

"Just ask your doctor for some new pills, I'll personally tell him it's my fault."

"Nah, it's fine."

"So, um, sorry about what you saw today,"I said awkwardly as I put the last pill back into the bottle.

"You were expressing how you felt,"he said."I just wish you did it in a different way. You could talk about anything to me, and I would never judge you."

 "I know,"I sighed."I was just being really stupid."

"We all do stupid things,"he smiled.

"Liam?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm really glad you're my friend,"I said.

"Me too,"he smiled.

We hugged each other, and smiled.

Just then we heard a small knock on the door.

"Come in,"Liam said as he let go of me.

Harry can walking through the door.

"Hey Liam, can I speak with Sarah? Please?"Harry asked.

Liam nodded his head, gave me one last hug, and walked out.

"Soooo,"Harry said awkwardly.

"If you're going to tell me how stupid I was, how you are always here for me when I need someone to talk to, I don't really want to hear it,"I sighed."I've already been through that twice, and I would like to just forget all about that stupis suicide attempt."

"Er, alright,"he said and he walked over to where I was sitting.

"Sorry for snapping at you,"I said now feeling guilty."It has just been a really long day."

"No, it's cool. I would be frustrated too."

"Yeah..."

There was a long period of silence between us.

"Louis feels like shit,"Harry said breaking the silence.

"Tell him to join the club,"I muttered.

"He feels really bad."

"Mhm. Harry I appreciate you looking out for Louis, but I don't want to hear about him either. He made me feel like shit, and I just want to not talk about him."

"Alright,"he said.

"Sorry I brought you into all this,"I sighed."I should've just told Niall the truth."

"Maybe you were,"Harry said quitely.

"What?"I asked.

"Maybe you were telling the truth,"he said a bit louder.

"That I like you?"

"Yeah,"he said going into a small whisper.

"Bu-"

Harry silenced me with a small kiss on my lips, and he quickly stopped causing him to blush.

His lips were definatley different from Louis's and Niall's. Harry's was more humble out of the three of them. Which surprised me a lot since Harry kisses many girls. I looked into his green eyes a bit shocked. I mean Louis and I just got into a fight about kissing Niall, and now I have kissed Harry all in one day.

"Harry,"I said trying to regain my voice,"I just need time alone right now."

He looked at me, and nodded his head with the saddest eyes. Before he walked out I spoke up.

"And Harry,"I said.

"Yeah?"

"Maybe."