BOSS [+18]

19. Please

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Seeing him under the pouring rain with a begging face almost killed me inside. But I can't keep doing this to myself, he hurt me badly and it's hard for me to accept this.

I decide to close my windows and pretend that nothing was happening, but he seems to not let go at all.

"Harper, at least open the damn door" he yells.

I open my window again to shout at him:

"I say leave Jared, it's so hard to understand?"

"You can ask me to leave as many times as you want but I'll stay here until you open, I'm sure your neighbors will love all this yelling"

Well the man has a point but still, what the hell does he wants? He kicked me out of his life and now he's here like a dog. I don't know what would happen if I let him in. But I can keep making a scene in front of my neighbors, so I decide to open the damn door.

When he sees that the door is open he runs into my direction getting inside of my house. His always beautiful and perfect face today looks like shit and he's covered with water from the rain.

"Do you need a towel?" I offer him.

"Yes, please"

I grab a towel from my bathroom and give so he can dry himself and don't make a mess in my house. While he dries I start talking:

"What do you want here?" I ask

"You, I want you back Harper" he says while he passes the towel on his perfect hair

What the actual fuck? He dumped me, he humiliated me and now he just wants me back? That easier? After all I suffered and cried for this man now after all of this he wants me back. Go straight to hell.

"Go away. Leave now. You made yourself very clear that day Mr. Leto..." I say with emphasis on his name "that our relationship would be strictly professional, so I think I'm not comfortable talking to you outside the office" I glance at him.

He drops the towel on my couch and starts to talk:

"Harper I'm sorry, please accept my apologies" he says trying to touch my arm but I pull it immediately.

"Sorry for what exactly?" I say.

"I'm sorry that I hurt you, I know I did. Sorry that I couldn't admit even for myself that yes I have feelings for you. Sorry for everything I made you feel" he says looking at me with his perfect blue eyes. His eyes will be death of me some day.

"Jared I can accept your apologies. But I can't just forgive you like that and be back. You have no idea the hell I've been through these last days. I'll ask one last time leave my house" I say with the tears rolling down my cheeks.

"I know Harper but please hear what I have to say before kicking me out. I never thought that I was going to have feelings ever again for someone. I made a promise to myself that I would never love again, or allow myself feeling something about someone, but then you came, you make me lose my mind and I didn't know what I was feeling"

"And that justifies all that you have said to me?"

"No, it doesn't. But I thought it would be easier if you hated me."

"Well at least your mission was accomplished because now I hate you" I say with anger in my voice.

"You don't hate me. I know that" he says coming closer to me. I freeze in my place and I don't know what do.

He was honest with me now about his issues, but can I trust him again? What if every time he's confuse about something he'll make me live this hell again. His body is getting close to mine but I push him away.

"I can't do this Jared. Every time you're close to me I only can think about the pain I've been through these last days" I say

"Harper, what if I promise I would never hurt you again?"

"You can't promise that"

"I can. I'm all solved with my issues, I know what I want. I want you please Harper I beg you. I only want to make you happy now" he says coming closer to hold me in his arms. He hugs me close to his wet chest and starts to whisper "I need you baby girl. Please be mine again"

I definitely want to be "his" again but I don't know what to do. It's hard to think when he's so close to me.

"Let me think about this, I need some time" I say leaving his embrace.

"I'll wait" he says sitting on the couch. Suddenly he takes his shirt off. The guts of this bastard. I sigh and try not to look at his perfect abdomen or I'll be dead. "Sorry, I'm just drying my body before I get a cold" he says grabbing back the towel.

"Yes you are" I smirk at him "You need to leave, I can't think while you're there Jared"

"The rain is too heavy I can't drive back like that" he says shrugging

"Fine but I'm going to my bedroom and you'll stay here ok?" I say and he just nods.

When I'm coming inside of my bedroom I feel someone pulling me and pressing me against the wall.

"Your time is up baby girl" he says with his hot breath in my ears. He smash his lips against mine and I feel the urge of his kiss and I kiss him back like my life depends on this, I missed his soft lips, I missed his breath, his smell and everything about him. But I need to resist him. I push him back.

"Enough Jared, haven't you understand that I don't want this now? All I want to do is kick your ass and punch you in the face because I'm so mad at you. You made a fool of me and I can't contain my anger I..." he interrupts me again with his lips pushing me to my bedroom throwing me on my bed.

"I get, you're mad, but you like me as much as I like you, if we want to be together let's just stop being stupid for the love of god Harper." He says looking me in the eyes and I just sigh.

He leans to kiss my lips and says "One more chance, please"

"Jared before anything else there's something you should know. Because is the reason that is scaring me the most to come back to you."

"Say it Harper" he says in a soft tone.

"Jared, I am scared to come back to you because I don't like you... I love you" I say waiting for a bad reaction coming from him, but I just need to let this go.

"H-how can you?" he asks

"I know it's stupid, I didn't wanted to admit this to myself but when you left me I realized that, it's all so fast we barely know each other. But I can't control my feelings." I say with my tears coming down again. He comes closer and dries my tears with his fingers.

"I don't know what falling in love is anymore to be honest Harper. But I'm sure that it's probably like I am feeling about you. I need some time to adjust with the idea of being 'loved' by someone, but I want us to this together please." He says grabbing my face between his hands leaning to kiss me again.

This time I give in to the kiss. I feel his mouth devouring me while he's tongue is all over my mouth, he bites my lip and I shiver. I missed this so much and now I'm really feeling that we're equal and this time feels so much better.

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Yayy, so they're finally back. What do you think it's going to happen next? I hope you guys liked. See you soon.