BOSS [+18]

36. Deliver

Well hello guys. I'm back after a loooong time again, and I'm sorry I really do. But I've been traveling for a while on holidays and life has been crazy, btw I saw Jared multiple times hallelujah so you can forgive me right? I'll really try to update more often ok? Also, listen to the song ocean eyes by Billie Eilish while you read, just saying, do it hahahaa. Love you all. Enjoy it ;)

Life is going on, it looks like. Things with me and Austin are doing great, he's sweet, gentle and it really looks like he likes me.

I still can't open myself that much unfortunately but I'm trying. He still doesn't know what happened between me and Jared in the past, not the full story and I still don't feel comfortable about telling to be honest.

Now I'm here all sprawled on my couch looking for some random stuff to watch on Netflix. I was exhausted from work and I deserved a little break so why not.

All of sudden my intercom rings, like why now? I'm not even expecting anyone, but reluctantly I get up from the couch to get it.

"Hello who is it?" I say.

"Miss green you have a deliver, can you open the door?" A male voice answers me.

Deliver, of what? I didn't bought anything. Jesus Christ it's probably some flowers from Austin again, this man.

I don't answer and just open the door and wait for whatever it is this deliver.

I hear my doorbell ringing and when I open the door I feel all the blood being drained away from me, I could literally pass out right now but I was completely in shock. Is this a ghost? An illusion. This can't be real. It looks like Jared but is different. Am I seeing things?

I blink multiple times to make sure that the image in front of me is real, but when he opens his mouth my suspicious is confirmed:

"Please don't kick me out yet" he says in a soft tone.

I can't answer him I'm still completely in shock, he's so different. His hair is huge and his beard too, I could barely recognize him like that. I finally find some strength to say something:

"What the hell do you want here?" I answer in a rude tone.

"You" he says with a smile on his face, oh please how can he be so ridiculous.

"Well you lost your time, please leave my house" I snap at him.

"Harper please, just listen to me, just this once" he says in a begging tone.

What am I supposed to do with that? The question is, am I really want to know what he has to say? It feels like I moved on but now with him in front of me it's hard to think.

He was still on my door on the hallway and I didn't wanted to make a scene to my neighbors so I just made him come inside and sit on the couch.

"So spit it out, what do you want to say?" I say in a hard tone.

His Expression changes a little I guess he doesn't know this part of me, yet. Well he was the one who woke this up.

"First of all, I want to ask you to forgive me. Please, I should have never say anything I said to you. Every single fucking night I can barely sleep thinking about all the shit I made. Losing you was more painful that I could ever imagine. I really love you, I always have, I always will. And for this I also want to say I'm sorry. Sorry for all the times I should have said I loved you and I didn't because I was an asshole. Sorry for all the suffering I put you through, you didn't deserved this. The list is infinite..." He was saying and I shushed him with my fingers.