Life As a Beta's Mate: Sawyer's Regret

Ch.20

Ch.20

                Nearly on the brink of her world exploding right there in front of her, Sage sat there on the bed across from Amaya staring at her as if she were both looking at a ghost and trying to solve an unbeatable puzzle. For a second there it seemed as if the world just stopped for a moment, leaving Amaya's words hanging in the air.

                Shaking her head in total disbelief and bewilderment, Sage felt herself give in to a short breath that was on the edge of erupting into a full blown fit of hysteria.

                Opening her mouth to try to find the right words to summon, she sat there in total shock on the edge of her seat, trying to make herself understand what it was that Amaya had just said. Unable to do so, she sat there opening and closing her mouth as it gave way to a dryness unlike anything that she had ever felt before. 

                Finally settling on a single word, she mumbled out a clueless, "What," before fallen back into a state of silence.

                "I know," Amaya said softly as she tested the water with Sage, reaching over and grabbing her hand, giving it a soft and comforting squeeze, "it's completely confusing. But it's also completely true."

                "You're crazy." Sage blurted out as she snatched her hand away from Amaya's, staring at her with those big brown eyes.

                "I understand your reaction, and while I understand that, I need you to focus on what's about to happen, becau-"

                "No," Sage stated, slightly louder than before, "I-I'm not listening to you Amaya." She said rising from her bed in shock as she angrily shook her head in denial. "You're nuts if you think that Sawyer and I are those types of mates. Okay I've seen what those types of people do to each other. We're not that, we're like them, we-"

                "Pull away from each other ever chance you get?" Amaya questioned softly as she adjusted her position on the bed, and turned to face a standing Sage, who looked well above shocked. "You pull away from each other every chance you get now. Sure one of you say you're doing it from one reason and the other is doing it for another, but it's the same. It's rejection, and being interlinked with your mate, is the worst kind of rejection there is to face. I've seen cases like this before. No two interlinked couples are the same. There are mild cases and then there are the severe one's like the one Sawyer's sister Leslie and her mate Conner endure. Believe it or not I've even seen it worse than that, and trust me sweetheart, you and Sawyer are heading to worst." She said slowly rising to her feet as she placed a soft look on Sage, begging her to listen.

                "No," Sage stated softly still in heavy disbelief and denial, "Sawyer and I...we're not..."

                "No," Amaya said softly, "you are. Think about your first meeting, when you first realized that there was something about Sawyer, maybe it was something about him that draw you in, something strong, something powerful. Think about you felt in that moment. Did you welcome it? Did you love the way it felt? Did you want more from him? Did you want to stay by his side, and never leave? Or did want to flee from him; to run and hide, because whatever you felt scared you? Did you leave in that moment? What did you do?"

                Trying her best to focus on her breathing while listening to Amaya's soft spoken words, Sage's struggle to hold on to that denial slowly began to melt away, as she took Amaya's advice and begun to think about the first time she ever realized that there was something special about Sawyer.

                Almost instantly her mind drifted back to when she was that naïve teenage girl in a park, watching over the terror twins, before meeting him.