FuR (Royce)

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Sluggishly coming home from school, I threw my books at the front door, not even caring to bring them upstairs.

I literally had to drag myself up the steps, and into my room.

Let me just show you a glimpse on how my life has been:

I finally got a job, cause I need to save up money for my child.

Everyday after school, I have been working my ass off, and I've only gotten one check.

Yay for me.

I've also been working on my grades, and I've already been looking for colleges, hoping a scholarship or two will come my way.

And every night I've been having a whole bunch of dreams of my "Dad", or whoever he is.

And one dream about my mom hiding the box of items.

Also some ones of Chresanto and such.

But I don't care about it anyway, his family presumed him gone forever.

I can't get passed the fact that my first love is gone.

I haven't seen him in like two months, and it's March 1st today.

Spring is coming, yay I guess.

But On the inside, I feel like giving up.

I have a baby, which is two months now, and he or she won't grow up with a Dad.

And you don't know how much that makes me want to bawl out in tears.

Where did I go wrong?

Was it never meant to be?

So many questions that are unanswered.

I've taken every route, from intense thinking, to religious matters actually.

And it does help, a lot actually.

But still the same feeling everyday: Empty....

Falling backwards onto my bed, I let out a huge sigh of frustration, and sadness.

Have you ever had that feelings where you just want to cry a river?

That's exactly how I'm feeling...

And it isn't fun either😔

I miss him.

Filler!

But, just felt like writing this short piece.

I kind of got emotional, but it wasn't all that.

So comment, vote, and all that good stuff.

Peace✌️

~Aiyana~