My Kik-Ass Boy Girlfriend (BoyxBoy)

Fourteen

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adams_28: ;)

I still couldn’t feel myself as I stared at the picture in front of me. I couldn’t even be bothered to respond to the following message he sent me after I opened the picture. I was just in awe of what I was looking at simply because I was talking to this sexy piece of man.

It made me feel ashamed of lying about this whole thing to him. I didn’t know what his motives were for even being on Kik and messaging random girls (like me), but while he was sending me some legit photos of him and telling me true information about himself, I’ve done nothing but lie to him.

I lied about how I looked, about my name, about my whole personality in general. The thing is though, that’s exactly what it has to take for me to even catch the attention of these hot boys, but the downside was that none of them are interested in the same sex.

There was a hesitation within myself to continue going along with this crap, but temptations are everyone’s weakness, so I caved. I just had to follow through with this. As much as I truly wanted to be with Grant, fate has made it so that it would never be possible.

Why did I have to be a girl born in a man’s body? Why couldn’t I just be naturally a girl so that I can ogle at other men freely without getting disapproving looks from society?

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not the feminine type of guy and I don’t have anything against them, but why does society have to get in the way of what I want and what I need just because they don’t see it as a normal thing to do?

The judgments of today’s society are bringing more and more people further into the closet because of fear of rejection. It causes problems for some who are out in the open because it becomes more difficult for them to find a partner.

Much like me. It’s even harder for me because while I’m in the closet, a lot of others are also in the closet. None of us have any idea who we can have a romantic relationship with because none of us know who’s gay and who isn’t.

adams_28: Alice?

The sound of my phone vibrating and dinging brought my attention back to the screen. I already forgot that Grant had said something to me and I haven’t replied to it.

:3 :D: Sorry, Grant. I was too star stuck by the picture you sent me.

:3 :D: You’re fûcking sexy ;)

adams_28: You’re too nice, Alice…

adams_28: You’re also the hottest person to ever talk to me.

:3 :D: You already told me that…

He did. I remember it clearly because it was engraved in my head. Nobody’s given me such a compliment before, it’d take a long time for me to forget it. Of course, the only problem with it is that it wasn’t directed at me, but at the nonexistent “Alice”.