Anna's Journal

Wednesday September 3rd 2014

I can add failure to my list of reasons now. I flunked my Algebra test today, I didn't even know we had a test! Granted its hard to concentrate on someone putting the alphabet in math when your huge stomach is basically touching the floor. At lunch Daniel gets me to sit next to him everyday ever since he saw what happens. I think he's really starting to suspect something's wrong with me. He gets me food everyday and watches me intently until I eat 'enough.' He's even hesitant about letting me go to the restroom after eating. Because of Daniel being an idiot and ruining my diet I now have even less spare time since I added two hours to my workout routine. I only lost 2 lbs since I'm eating more. Making me 112. As I've said before; I'm like a freaking whale! Really no ones been saying anything about me lately. I take that back, really no ones been saying anything about my weight lately. Besides the rumors of me being a whore for Daniel a group of girls started something new. Whenever they see me they say something like "I had a bad day" or "I'm depressed today." And drag their finger across their wrist making a stupid sound effect. Every time they look at me while doing it and after they laugh like it's the funniest thing ever. I don't think I'll let Daniel find out about that it might hurt him more than me. Yesterday in the midst of our goofing around while supposedly working on our project we had serious talk. I told him about my mothers passing and how my dads never home. He told me shortly after his father passed his twin sister, Daniella, committed suicide. I can't believe he had to go through losing his dad then sister within the same few months. From what he says he was really close to both of them. I don't think I could ever go through losing two of closest people to me. I think me and Daniella could've been friends she sounds like an amazing person. She looked basically like a female Daniel and she could sing better than anyone. I think I really like Daniel. I don't know if it's sympathy or the fact he was the only one at school who didn't immediately judge me but when I'm with him I feel so different almost as though I can escape the horrible cluster of thoughts in my mind and feel nice. When I with Daniel I feel like I can be myself...that I could be happy.