he likes boys [z.s]

i've never felt like this before

[Zayn]

Fuck.

The bottle couldn't have landed on anyone else like bobby or some shit. I sat there watching the whole thing go down.

I was so angry and mostly jealous. I wanted it to be me who got to kiss Harry. NOT MY SISTER.

If they kiss I'd have no chance with Harry. I'm not even sure if he's gay or not so it's not like I'd have a chance with him anyway.

Taylor leaned in, placing her lips on Harry's plush pink lips that I craved so deeply.

She started to kiss him and without hesitation he kissed her back. It was so hard to watch.

I felt sick, I was about to throw up when they pulled apart. Taylor looked straight into his beautiful green eyes and I couldn't take it anymore.

I was so annoyed, I quickly looked around for someone to kiss. Until someone caught my eye. Shawn. I grabbed him by his shirt, and pushed my lips to his. I wasn't that drunk, and I kind of liked it.

At that point I didn't care what anyone thought of me. I just wanted to kiss someone, male in particular.

[Harry]

I was drunk out of my mind, I didn't even realize what was happening.

I felt lips on mine, so I decided to kiss back. We parted and I opened my eyes realizing it was Taylor. Oh shit.

I looked over at Zayn to see him kissing Shawn. I was so confused.

There is no way Zayn's gay. I sat there watching as he bit his lips and looked into Shawn's eyes.

I wish it was me who got to kiss him.

As they parted Zayn looked over at me and smirked. I felt butterflies in my stomach. Is he that drunk?! Or is he actually gay?

They pulled each other in once again and everyone cheered. I felt so resentful and needed another drink.

I went to the kitchen and grabbed another drink, watching as someone walked behind me.

"Hey curly" it was Zayn.

"Umm.. h-hey" I looked straight into his beautiful hazel eyes, than back down at his body and at his lips.

I wanted to kiss him so badly.

I was craving his lips on mine. I stepped closer. Taking in his entire body, looking at every inch and admiring it.

"Like what you see" he whispered into my neck as he stepped closer. He was extremely drunk.

As I looked into his eyes once again, Taylor entered the kitchen.

"What are you guys doing, come on we're watching a movie!"

Who watches a movie full out drunk?!

I walked into the living room, seeing everyone completely blacked out on the couch watching The Notebook.

I sat down on the couch, Taylor beside me, Zayn on my other side.

I looked around at everyone on the couch, Louis and Liam cuddling and kissing, I looked over at Niall who was resting his head on jade's lap.

And there was me sitting in between the guy I like, and his sister.

I sat there really into the movie, not realizing that Taylor had fallen asleep right next to me and that Zayn had brought a blanket and is now moving closer to me.

I laid my head on his chest and fell asleep.

[Zayn]

I woke up this morning to Harry sleeping on top of me. He looked too peaceful, I didn't want to wake him.

I remembered some of the night before, since I wasn't that drunk.

I looked around the room getting up carefully from the couch trying not to wake Harry up. I noticed that everyone had already woken up, including Taylor.

I walked into the kitchen seeing Taylor, Liam, Louis and Niall all taking Advil to help with their headaches.

"Hey guys" I started "do any of you remember what happened last night" I looked straight at Liam and Louis who gave each other a confused look.

"No why, did I do something crazy" Liam asked.

"Sort of" I laughed.

"Oh no... what did I do" he panicked

"You and Louis sort of spent the entire night making out" Both Louis and Liam's jaws dropped as I said that.

"Oh shit, we were that drunk" Louis laughed.

I didn't want to add the part where they went upstairs into a room, because no one really knows what happened up there. And I didn't want to scar them.

A few minutes later Harry woke up, not remembering a thing about last night.

"W-what happened last night?"

"You drank too much" I walked over to him, handing him Advil and water, hoping he didn't remember the kiss, or should I say kisses  from last night.

I don't want anyone to know I'm gay. Not until I'm sure of it myself and I'm not comfortable telling anyone yet.

"Did I do anything too wild" he asked. I smirked. He widened his eyes, his face turning bright red. "Don't tell me I-" I laughed.

"I'm only teasing, you didn't do anything too wild"

"Thank god" he held his chest dramatically.

"Only a few things you deserve to be punished for." I winked.