he likes boys [z.s]

yeah, started off right

[Zayn]

I HATE labels. More than anything, I hate being called either gay or bi or straight or whatever it is I am. I hate it.

I hate the fact that you have to love a certain type of person or you have to be part of a group, under a label.

I'm not gay.

I thought I was but I'm not. I'm human. And I'm aloud to love whoever I want. It took me a while to figure out that I don't need to be labeled or know what I am to love.

I am me.

And I am free to love whoever and whatever I want without being gay or anything.

I was never gay to begin with, the only guy I've ever liked is Harry, and I can like Harry without being labeled.

After telling Liam I thought I might be gay he told me that I could like Harry and I don't need to question my sexuality because what if I don't want a sexuality, what if I just want to live life and find love to whomever that might be.

What if having a sexuality means I'm living in a bubble and not trying new things.

If I like a guy it doesn't make me gay and if I like a girl doesn't mean I'm straight.

I really want to tell Harry about my feeling towards him but I feel like he doesn't feel the same way.

Harry is open with every person he likes, he usually flirts with them and finds a way to get them rapped around his little finger.

He hasn't even tried to flirt with me or get close to me once so he clearly doesn't feel the same way about me that I feel about him.

I've tried flirting with and teasing him but nothing seems to be working. He blushes a bit but that's all. He doesn't flirt back or tease back.

I wish I could have the balls to tell him but I don't.

I cant just go up to him and tell him how I feel about him because I'm worried I'll scare him away.

What if he never talks to me again.

What if he starts to think I'm weird.

What if he likes someone else.

I hope he doesn't.

[Harry]

I couldn't help but stare at Zayn while he was sitting at the pool side on one of the pool chairs.

He was shirtless and his skin was shinning in the sunlight. He looked zoned out while staring blankly at his phone.

I wonder what he was thinking about.

Suddenly Zayn turned his head and smiled one of his biggest smiles at me.

I stood up from where I was sitting at the edge of the pool and went to sit on the pool chair beside Zayn.

"Hi" Zayn said as soon as I sat down.

"Hey" I replied.

We sat in comfortable silence until Zayn decided to break it.

"Yo I have a question for you" he said.

"Go ahead"

"Don't think I'm weird or anything after this but-" he took a deep breath "What do you think about gays?"

I was shocked to hear that question. Did he suspect I was gay? Is that why he's asking or was he just wondering.

Is Zayn gay himself? Zayn? Gay? That can't be.

"I don't mind them" I smiled "I believe everyone can love who they want and in fact there doesn't even need to be labels everyone can be and love whoever they choose"

"That's very sweet Harry" he smiled back at me.

"Of course what do you think I am some kind of homophobe?"

"Of course not but it's nice hearing it from you, I don't know but those words kind of made my day"

He smiled really big at me and suddenly I felt comfort, knowing I comforted him and knowing that he doesn't hate gays either. It makes it easier to come out.

I really want to come out and I wish I had the balls to tell Zayn how long I've had a crush on him for but I get nervous when im around him.

I can't imagine telling him how I feel.