things i can't say

therapy

i need therapy
there are so many thoughts and feeling i have
i can never share them
not with friends
with family
i hate it
i need therapy
it used to help me
my father doesn't care
he only cares about his next drink
he told me he wanted to help me
but then he does nothing
he tells the psychiatrist he'll look into a therapist
then he goes and plays computer games all night long
and he wonders why i don't enjoy talking to him
i need someone to talk to
i'm going to explode soon
i know it