things i can't say

crush

i like a boy
he's nice to me
he's nice to everyone
he's funny
he's cute
he's in band
he plays the french horn
he's the section leader
he's sweet
we have three months left
i don't know whether to tell him
i want to
i want him to know
i want him to feel the same
i'm just too scared of him not
of not feeling the same
of not speaking to me anymore
of being weird around me
of laughing at me with his friends
i just want him
and i want him to want me to