things i can't say

stopped

i've stopped
taking my meds
i've stopped
seeing my psychiatrist
i've stopped
caring about my ming
i don't care if i get worse
i don't care if i go through a high
i don't care if i go through lows
i just don't care
by the way my family has treated me
since i was diagnosed
it's better
to act as if
i'm not sick
not at all
and to pretend
to be okay
just as i've done
for so long
and if i get bad again
if i get sad again
if i bleed again
well
would it really be
so bad
at all