New Year's Day

Chapter 31

Andy's POV

I finally recollected myself enough to go see the guys. I still don't know how I'm going to tell them. They loved Destiny just as much as I did. Besides, if it wasn't for them, I don't think I would have found her in time. They supported me from the beginning and always reminded me that I was making a stupid mistake during the past few weeks. I guess I will just have to tell them like it is: Destiny is gone, and there is no going back now. I can't sit in a hospital room waiting for her to wake up like before. There is no waking up this time.

I made my way back to the waiting room to find the guys huddled in a corner. There were several wandering eyes looking at them because they decided to wear their make up today. I suppressed a smile as I slowly began walking over to them. I took a deep breath and walked over. Here we go.

"Guys?" I asked allowing them to realize that I was standing in front of them as they seemed to be zoned out and in their own worlds.

"Andy, how is she?" Jinxx asked. That broke me. In that moment, I realized that this was it. They're truly was no going back and I have to tell my best friends that I just lost the love of my life. I couldn't catch my breath. The tears wouldn't stop flowing. "Andy, everything will be okay," Jinxx said.

"How? How can you say that to me? I just lost the love of my life. She's gone!! She's never coming back!"

"I-I'm sorr-" Jinxx stuttered out.

"Look, I don't mean to yell, but I need to be alone. You can go say your goodbyes or whatever but I need time alone. I'm sorry," I said walking out without another word. I made my way out of the hospital and to the nearby park. I found an unoccupied park bench and sat down, no longer trusting my legs to carry me. I thought about how my life will now change. The love of my life is gone. There was so much more for her to live for. She didn't deserve to go out like that. It's all my fault, too. I should've been there for her. I should've held her in my arms and told her I loved her each and every night, but I was an idiot and didn't. I wiped away my tears and grabbed my phone. I text anyone that would have cared to know and told them that I would begin making funeral arrangements sometime soon. You never really realize how much someone has impacted your life until they are gone and you can no longer hold them in your arms whenever you want. Nothing in my life will ever be the same.

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Today is the day of Destiny's funeral. I haven't said a word to anyone all morning. I plan on keeping it that way until the funeral begins. I dress in my black suit and place a black rose in my jacket pocket. I grab Destiny's favorite guitar pick and slide it into my pocket as well. I head out to my car and drive to the funeral home.

When I arrive at the funeral home, I find that there are several people already there. I lower my head and walk straight to the chapel and take a seat on the front row. I can't bare to look at the coffin just yet. Seeing her lifeless body will shatter me.

The service begins with a prayer. Then the pastor says a few words and sends his condolences. Then it is my turn to speak. I take a deep breath and head up to the podium.

"Destiny was someone very special in my life. We kind of met by accident. I guess you could call it fate. I believe that I was put in that moment in time to meet Destiny, and honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way. Normally when someone witnesses an accident, they will say a prayer or two and then move on with their lives, but things were different when I pulled Destiny from the car. I knew then and there that there would be no way of erasing her from my memory, so I stayed with her the entire time. I refused to leave the hospital while she was in a coma and even while she was healing. I began to learn more about her, from her favorite color to her favorite song, I wanted to know everything. We tend to forget that everything in this world is temporary, especially when you are spending time with the ones you love. Time seems to slow, and it is as if only those few seconds between you will be enough to last a lifetime. There are trials of good and bad where the love is tested between two. Destiny and I shared many of those trials, but unfortunately, the last one was one that we lost. I will always remember the love that I have for Destiny Smith. I will always love her, and I will never forget the way that she saved my life even if she never knew it. I love you, Destiny."

I wiped away my tears and took a seat on the pew. I finally looked over to the coffin and felt another wave of tears flow out. I quietly whispered, "I'm so sorry, Destiny. I love you so much. It won't be long before I see you again, darling."

The service came to an end and I said a few words to the other guests. I placed Destiny's guitar pick in her casket over her heart and kissed her now cold lips one last time. They closed the casket and placed it into the ground burying everything but my memory with it.

I'm so sorry, Destiny.