I cant focus on anything just now. The TVs on but I'm not interested. The volumes down and it's just flickering away on some chat show. I'm sitting on the bed, wrapped in the blanket wearing Shannon's favourite band shirt that I packed by mistake. I had grabbed a pile of clothes and it was caught on something of mine. It smells of him and that's when it hit me in the pit of my stomach that I've just left him. Left everything. My best friend, my lover, my job. Holy fuck jess when you fuck up you do it big style full on. My eyes are red and swollen and my cheeks are saturated with a million tears. My heart hurts and I just feel lost. I look finally at my phone and see theres at least ten missed calls from Jay and shayla and about 20 from shan plus so, so many texts. All saying the same. Where am I, am I ok, come straight back. Nothing angry or negative from Jay. I'm so confused. He was so angry. I cant even think about it. I let them down. I let myself down. Taking chances when I should've just been professional. Aaaaaaah!! I need to get out of here. I need some fresh air.
I stick a hoody on and some shades to cover up these god awful eyes. I have an inward giggle when I think how many times I've slagged off both brothers for having shades on 24/7. But hey needs must.
I head out the room and stand to wait for the elevator. It's taking forever and I cant face anyone anyway so I head for the stairs to get down instead.
Shannon's p.o.v
I basically throw money at the cab driver and jump out running up to the reception. Jay had called on the way and managed somehow to find out which floor she was on. He rang me as I was about to start harassing the staff so I bypassed them and tried for an elevator. It was heading up the way and I had no time to waste. I headed for the stairs and charged up as fast as I could.
My 49 year old ass flew up them two at a time like it was nothing. I was desperate to see she was okay. I was about four floors up and stopped to catch my breath and there she was. Wrapped up in my shirt and a hoody, hiding behind her shades, head down running down as I headed up. She obviously sensed someone else was in the stairwell and stopped in her tracks when she realised it was me. She was frozen in fear. The tears fell freely until I cleared the last few stairs and pulled her into my arms. I was crying, she was crying and she just kept apologising over and over again. My heart was breaking for her. None of this was her fault and yet she made the sacrifice for me, for the band. I owe her everything.
"Jess, baby calm down. You gotta breathe baby. Your hyperventilating and your gonna pass out. C'mon sweetie. Sit here." I pat the stair and she sits down still in shock. I sit beside her and push a lock of hair off her tear soaked cheek. I kiss her forehead and pepper kisses across her cheeks drying her tears as I do. My thumb caresses her cheek till I feel she is relaxing slightly.
She finally looks me in the eye and realises its really me and she sees I'm crying too. "Shannon " she gasps as she wipes the tears away with gentle touches. I kiss her gently, almost waiting for permission, until she relaxes into it and I feel her lips part and her tongue seek out mine. Things are getting pretty heated till we hear a door open a few floors below and remember where we are. " shannon quick before someone recognises you ". She grabs me and we head up the stairs as quick as we can. Shes grappling in her pocket for the keycard and drops it in the rush to get in. I quickly grab it and we are in the room with the door shut and I lock it swiftly and whirl her around so she is hard backed up against it. I can feel her heart beating against my chest we are so close. Shes staring at me as if she still cant believe I'm there. I hold her face with both hands and theres no need for words. It's just me and her. No one else, no stresses, worries, problems. I need her. My hands move from her face tracing down her body, her slender neck, sexy collar bone, gentle swell of her breasts, nipples hard as rocks. She giggles as I trace her sides but breathes in sharply as I grip her hips and pull them into mine. She can feel how hard I am and her breath picks up. This is gonna be hard and fast, plenty of time for feelings after.
I lift her top and nip at her skin as I pull her bra down with my teeth. They catch her nipples and she drops her head back and groans as I lick over the throbbing nub to soothe where my teeth have been. Her hands are on my belt before I can even do it myself. She kicks off her shoes and I do the same. I spin her round and it's just a case of moving enough clothing out the way before I thrust into her and God it feels like heaven. We fit together like it was always meant to be. Shes so wet for me but still so tight and I know its not gonna last long. Shes hard against the door with just my hand braced on her breast stopping her from banging against it. I can feel her tensing up and my God it sends me over the edge and I explode inside her with an almighty grunt. I can hardly breathe and I just stay wrapped around her, cock still hard inside her, panting like crazy. Shes totally spent and I'm surprised we haven't had the staff banging the door down between the thumping and the groaning. I lean in kissing her neck gently and she relaxes against me. " I love you so much baby." I whisper into her right ear as I hug her tightly.
" I love you too shannon, but this door knob is gonna bruise me like a peach if i dont move soon" she says causing us both to burst out laughing. She moves gently and I feel myself softening and slipping out of her. I turn her around and kiss her like its my last kiss on earth before I tuck myself in and rush to the bathroom to get a wet cloth and towel to clean my baby up. I lead her to the bed where we sit and talk into the small hours, ignoring all the calls and texts I'm sure are from Jay.
Before we know it the suns starting to come up and we are absolutely shattered. I managed to cuddle her up next to me and pull the quilt up still fully clothed to try and get some well needed rest before we need to get up and deal with everyone else........
